Investment

I was given an investment opportunity this last year that I had to decline.

It was one of the most difficult decisions I had to make because it felt Golden, and I wanted to be there, on the team of someone worthy, supporting him.

He chided me that sometimes we must take large risks – huge leaps of faith in order to improve our life’s condition.

He did not realize he was preaching to a tried warrior of such courses of action, and I do not know if he has since recognized this.

I instead worked a different kind of multi-layered investment, which ensured my family unit was safe, no matter the difficulties we were about to face – even though this went against my personal, individual desire to join his venture.

I invested in questing for solid ground that I could stand proud upon as a representation of my good values, so that someday he could look at me and know without doubt that I made good decisions.

Had I joined in the offer, I might be rich now – but I would owe it all to him, and have no credentials in his eyes: I would have fallen into the category of just another person (albeit interesting, maybe) whom he helped to save.

I regret not being able to join the gang, and I regret not having the money and luxury. I very much want these things, and I want to belong to a dynamic team.

But, I think I made the move I needed to after having been taken down by other people betraying and leaving me. I needed to rebuild my identity for me.

I wasn’t afraid to invest in another man and gamble for love and money. On the contrary, I needed to turn that energy into proving myself to both of us, and reaping the rewards of having good strategy.

I pray an investment like he offered again some day comes my way. For then, I will have so much more to recommend me.

Until that day – or if the day never arrives – may he know that instead of investing for money, I invested in our future’s relationship.

My gambles are never petty.