Category: Where Demons Tread

Do you like being adored?

I do not know what I can do to bring you closer to me.

But then, it isn’t up to me – is it?

I get an hour or so’s rest before I must continue…

Hugs.

Sometimes I get mad…

Because you have not been here in the flesh, helping me.

But I try to not take it personally.

I feel so tired…

I imagine you do, too.

I look forward to being with you.

Goodnight, Love.

And let me in.

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(Sleep Token reference)

Please come be with me.

Remember I said we do not need perfection?

Grow with me.

Our gains will come with time.

Please don’t let any more seconds keep us from being with each other.

I miss you.

I need you.

I want to learn with you how to overcome our fears while we grow stronger together.

I found a place to go to.

I am blessed with a new way to start.

My Darling.

My Chosen One.

My lockdown was because I was afraid…

I desire you so strongly, and I want to give you everything.

But when I gave of my self in the past to others, I did not experience it returned.

I could not bear to not have your full devotion, if your love was only passing.

Come home to me.

(And tell me it’s you – lol)

My means for rebuilding are being stripped away, and somehow, I think that you can relate.

If we joined our forces together, could we both then ascend, stronger?

How do you get me to smile, wherever I go and at any time of day?

You and I need to not be so hypercritical of our selves.

We are high achievers frequently pushing past thresholds – and yet, we are still only human.

We need to take time for our selves to recover, together

I want what is ours.

I want us both to have it.

Could we get a place to live, together?

I guess I never said it, but have wanted to for quite awhile

Can you blame me for wantung you, when you are the key that opened the door to my hidden desires?

Thinking of you…

My beloved hero.

“You like my types of mood swings.”

“I’m in a mood.”

I guess that I needed to get my family to safety before I could be free to be me.

Thank you for your patience and understanding.

In the background of my mind through all of this stress of dismantling keeps playing one of your origin cover songs, soothing.

December 24, 2022

It was easier when I had someone
No vision expanded came undone

Even if the truth was a lie,
False confidence provided

I went to a show tonight, and though I know that it must have been good, I could not feel a thing without you there.

Maybe I am just tired from recent toils.

Or maybe I am exhausted by going through the trials of life with you still not beside me.