When they first met, she thought, “Ah, if only I could have one such as this,” lamenting her age, and thus missed opportunity.
Why now, when she knew much more and could see more clearly, was she societally not allowed to seek congruity with a man sharing similar interests, ready to start a family?
She told him that because of their age difference, they could only be friends, and that she thought it would be great for him to visit.
But, over the next several months, she realized how precious his heart was, and that she didn’t want it to get hurt by another’s rough using, so she committed to him.
Looking back now, after years invested, only to be turned away at the alter’s door by him, she reflected how she’d initially assessed they should only be friends.
Yes, the adventure-turned-into-long-journey had yielded her own personal growth benefits, but she’d also sacrificed and endured much hardship – which in the end, again left her empty handed.
So what was the lesson here? Should she not have tried like in the band Heart’s song, “Dog and Butterfly?”
Or was there no fault at all on her part, and it was the boy who’d been afraid to rise?
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