Application

Whilst initially I had dread and increased tension, if something seems prospectively viable, I will investigate and work the situation to solution.

I can’t just let an opportunity go by because it initially imposes pressure – even if my system begs me to.

I don’t know if this is a flaw in my operation – that I test to better define inner messages.

Maybe I ought to go in a different direction when I feel resistance.

But the question is, what kind of barrier is it?

Is it someplace I need to and could grow, or is the flaw something in another’s system?

Having received feedback from another doctor that the first was well known for his competence, and recognizing that the biggest barrier I perceived is that I need to brush up on anatomical terminology, perhaps this is a challenge worthy to attend to.

The other part is that I’m not sure I can trust the office.

Will they accept me and treat me honorably as their own, or will they use and then reject me?

The fact they are further testing and vetting me could be a good indicator that they have good boundaries.

Perhaps this could also mean that once I’m invited to join them, I’ll be included as part of the team’s family.