Treatise

When you’re an empath, you sense nuances other people may not notice.

When you’ve been abused, you learn to track patterns.

When 911 happened, I felt the undercurrents.

Most of the nation reacted to the external of it.

I realized then that Bush Jr.had secured the presidency.

No one was going to do a recount.

How convenient – and was the cost worth it?

To evil, yes. For profit – absolutely.

Hey. I don’t want this power.

It’s like being a super hero with no benefit.

And, it’s not like I can control it, or predict anything.

I have no real proof my impression was the whole story.

But, if anyone is paying attention at all to what’s around them, over time, some things can become a bit predictable.

Like the fact I was attracted to the celebrity.

Guaranteed that he was not available.

If I could break out of this grip that some hold has on me, I would do it – gladly.

That’s why my ex left me.

I wasn’t the problem – it was imbedded deep in his psychology.

And, like my father and fiance, he figured breaking up the family was a worthy sacrifice.

Well, having received that end of the lack of pardon, I refused to abandon my children.

So, they had to see the ugly – the damage that happens when someone destroys your dreams and takes everything.

I wish it didn’t still affect me.

It would be nice if there wasn’t constant negative reinforcement.

It that the out?

Make everything perfect?

Or numb oneself to the nth degree by alcohol or mushrooms or some other drug of choice that is a “no no” – but still more permissable than allowing me to break free?

The system has to be Right, and wil do everything and anything to maintain this facade.

At the expense of you and your loved ones – at a pittance of the cost for making you dependent.

So, there’s a fire raging inside of me.

It’s determined to break this larceny.

I have nothing to prove to others, but myself to reclaim – and to be the best person that I can be.