Being a positive innovator, I have attempted to maneuver around the barriers to obtaining my Bachelor’s degree by continuing to refashion myself in versatile marketability.
But, when I want to go mainstream, it is always the same: I am prevented from work and passed over without this piece of paper, regardlss of my life experience qualifications.
It has become like a missing part of me, something left behind and vital to securing my representative identity.
It is the verification (like a passport) that I have done the wondrous things I claim, and with it doors may at last be opened for me.
I cannot focus on something so essential and tied into past losses that must be redeemed while hoping to build a new, intimate relationship.
The way I love is deeply and committed, where building solid understanding would come first and foremost in my life’s priority.
I don’t think it would be as difficult to portion my attentions for balance once my Bachelors is acquired and I am moving onto a Masters and other new things.
It’s just that to finish this with so much resisting is like fighting off marauding demons.
I do not have a partner already at my back and lending a hand to support me, therefore, I cannot divert energy to build a partnership when I need my limited energy to ensure I succeed.
Why do I mention this?
I have a hard time, yet again, waiting for love’s opportunity.
Maybe someday it will seek me, and I will no longer have to chase after it.
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