Having More Children

I want this – God, how I do!

I can’t explain it except I am still capable and my body and soul yearn and are willing.

But, I hesitate when I look back upon what’s happened to me.

I have almost “lost myself” time and again – and surely have had my own needs shelved while consigned to single parenting.

There must be immense supports available and ready for me sustainably, were I to undertake such a feat again.

Most importantly, I would need my husband’s compassionate understanding.

I have been left out in the cold for years and am “starving.”

To get the best from me, he would need to give his love to me openly.

I can no longer play mind games around fealty if I wish to reclaim full sanity.

Yeah, I am a little unhinged these days – but this makes me also quite funny.