PUA sent me back to UI.
Like a game of dear old “Pong” – “g-nip, g-nop!” with me as the ball!
Month: January 2022
“Contrast”
“Homestead Groundcover”
“Between The Lines”
Heart Of Matter
Despite my own needs and desires, I can see people’s vulnerabilities and refuse to be selfish.
This means I naturally build rapport and inherently help to enhance others’ quality of living.
In doing so, I do not transgress across boundaries – even if individuals would do so or let me, willingly.
Instead, in my daily interactions, I deep listen among the multitudes to find traces of the man who can belong with me.
I get fragments of impressions that taunt and elude my arms’ reaching.
He doesn’t seem to be anywhere near me.
Bartlett Pear Tree
I found a bare root dwarf type outside in the lineups of other fruit varieties, but the store was closed, so I could not purchase it.
For several days, I keep returning to get it – but, the store’s hours change over the weekend to where I get deflected.
Ruefull Chuckle
When I find a spark between me and another person and extend them my friendship, I automatically discover where they need healing – and find that I can provide a piece of the puzzle that they have been missing and/or seeking.
But, when I try to arrange for my own needs, I end up supporting them more than they can actually help me.
It can feel like a bit of a let down on my own quest for healing to not get much receiving.
But, as a healer, at least I get to do what I am here for.
The Gift Of Language
I have developed a method of teaching English pronunciation fluency well – with laughter, playfulness, and joy of discovering each aspiring learner’s innate talents.
The challenge for me is how to charge for these services outside of the US, for here I still want to make it affordable, which I have determined will be $30 for 1 1/2 sessions.
“Peanuts” to the American Capitalistic standard.
But, to an Egyptian over a year ago, multiply 30×18 = $540 US equivalent for a session. 1 US dollar was then worth 18 egp.
Therefore, I have decided that in international “less affluent” economy to American economy situations, I would like a session I give to provide me equivalent of a meal for my family, but that my fee should not deprive a student’s equivalent of their family’s week worth of meals, for example.
With the new student I taught today, we will see in the next week what that amount looks like from Egyptian to American currency perspective.
I believe that the gift of language should not be prevented by dictates such as money.
One Afternoon
The shy bird flew in through a window, lured by shiny baubles left out on the table.
When the man in the room spoke to her gently, making only the slightest of movements, she began warbling to him – telling him of wonders she’d seen.
Then, upon winging to leave, she reflected how he had listened to her song earnestly – and found herself desiring more of his company.
1986 (Stay The Night)
“Parallel Realities”
“Casting Stones”
I am that which was tossed in the water – yet, the water displaced was me.
Exchanging
I have been here for people when they have been in need – and their accepting help from me has given me reason for being.
What Has Changed
I am beginning to feel that I have Choice, again.
More so perhaps than I ever have before – and between more good than bad.
*Sigh*
“It’s been a long time coming…”
Tomorrow
I begin teaching again, doing a little work, and making a new friend.
(Enjoy The Silence)
Anticipation
In the silence of The Unknown where all things are as yet undefineable, tension builds as pleasure seems plausible.
(Chapstick)
(Ribcage)
(Pocketful Of Sunshine)
I Might Be “Jaded”
But, I know what love is for – and how to take it higher.
(Rhiannon)
I Have Decided
I will share love, joy, and deep bonding where the sparks happen, and people are willing.
We are all meant for more happiness than we have been allowed.
With healthy boundaries and heartfelt embracing – it’s time to start Living!
(My Life)
(Brighter Than The Sun)
(I’m Into Something Good)
(This Is How We Do It)
(Every Little Kiss)
(When I See You Smile)
Synergy
Taking turns leading and supporting in a thriving, intimate relationship – what would this be like?
I’ve gotten so close before, but have never been fully invited through the door.
Having Children
I had desired to have more children of my own.
But, I also know that doing so is complicated.
There is a lot of good work needed in the world.
My partner and I must share a mutual dynamic.
Drew And John Cena Discussion – “Make A Wish” and Having Children
Wisdom
It is not easy being “farseeing.”
One can more easily see solutions to others’ problems than can readily define their own.
(Light Me Up)
Dead Ends
I have one client tomorrow, out of a potential of six.
“Lo though I suffer the little deaths, I shall rise again…”
(Dominoes)
(When Everything Was Grey)
Walkies
I got both pups out today, individually.
So proud me walking with each and connecting in harmony.
Protection
When I am about to slip, something steps in to divert me.
Which is good because I am tired of being so darn diligent!
“Frosty Morning”
I love that this caught the hummingbird feeder, lower mid-right. They sweet-sing outside our home and wing around, chasing each other in jet-zoom propulsion and swooping-arc acrobatics.
“Frosty Moon”
“Contact”
“Form And Function”
It’s True
I am witty in my own, weirdly fun way…
“Optical ‘Illusion'” – Bwaaahhh!
“Dragon’s Playing”
The one on the right is flying on its back with wings outstretched behind it, neck curled up and looking at the other flying at it from the left with feet extended forward as they are cavorting.
“Beckoning Spring”
“Looking For Me”
(Chance)
What Love Revealed To Me
After I saw, then had dreams about him, I had to take a closer look at what he had grown from and now appeared to be.
I had avoided following him when I was married – had ignored my instinct’s jangling – but he kept showing up in different forms in front of me.
I would be pulled in to fall, realize who it was – then run away again, wondering why he so affected me.
Now, my nose was being forcefully pushed toward him, no matter old inhibitions resisting.
It wasn’t his fame or fortune, nor acclaim, nor societal approval. Any and all of this could change in an instant.
It was the integrity of his spirit – and that, like me, he never gave in to disillusion.
He just kept coming back, Striving.
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