Month: January 2022

After we moved in, my youngling figured out how to use our oven.

It was a trick to do so because the bulb in the control panel that lets you see numbers change as you increase baking time has dimmed to where you can’t see the numbers unless in the pitchest black – and then, only faintly.

However, everything we baked comes out wonderfully, and this let me know that for the first time in any rental situation, we have an amazing oven!

I had asked our landlord if we could have it serviced awhile ago, but the model number had apparently been scraped off by a previous tenant.

She did her best to figure out a solution, and one day unexpectedly, her repair men showed with a smaller standard oven as replacement.

They were so kind and proud to be helping us when I opened the door and saw it leveraged on their dolly, prepared to be installed.

But, I couldn’t help myself.

I refused to let them exchange it!

It was such an embarrassing situation for me, as clearly my landlord was doing her best to provide for our needs, and the repair guys were ready.

I let them and her know how much I appreciated their kind generosity, but that we would deal with the dim bulb because the current oven was baking so beautifully!

I have been trying to simplify.

In doing so, I hope to gain more relaxed efficiency and have adapting to new situations go more smoothly.

This last week, I have not been working out because my attention has been focused on incorporating certain healing supplements and the antibiotics into a scheduled routine

I noticed that my body was already feeling pushed in dealing with overcoming infection, and that even though it needs and wants exercise, it was registering the extra stimulus as negative.

Therefore, I adjusted to the above, while experimenting with diet.

My cooking confidence is so low that I am currently just throwing myself at recipes, one at a time, and doing what I will with them while trying to gauge my positioning as I follow their guidelines.

It’s a form of accommodating for my rebellious resistance – in which I am hoping that with more gains and successes than failures, I will over time feel more competent.

Diets tend to put us in distress – and they do this to me, especially.

I like the concepts of foods in the yeast-free and specific carbohydrate diet, for they minimize sugars, offer selective carbohydrates, and basically work to help your body gain an edge over sugar-hungry yeast and bad internal bacteria.

But, the flavors can be off-putting, and I could feel my body actually under duress from needing carbohydrates and food it recognizes when eating results of these recipes in order to make a new transition.

Therefore, in tradition of my always “funking around” with recipes and making them “worse,” I have decided to work with these established recipes to actually make them “better.”

You will see my upcoming modifications and can judge for yourself as they embrace the concepts of the diets, but veer just enough to make them more palliatively “nommable.”

What is also important for me is to eat smaller portions, but with more frequency, to engage my metabolism’s better processing.

If I withhold food, my digestion slows down while it clings to whatever I feed it.

Understanding agency processes, patterns, trends, and how people tend to think while managing such things (especially where potential pitfalls or gaps in important communication can happen) allows me to navigate and guide collaborations efficiently because I often see and convey where I need to clarify to ensure productive completion.

When I began posting here, I just wanted to be seen.

I did not even necessarily want to be seen or acknowledged by others.

I just needed to bear witness to my own valid existence by externalizing.

However, as I post and share my processing, I am grateful to all of you for your support and encouragement.

I very much enjoy and appreciate your sharing in return with me!

I had not realized that I might gain connection to such a wonderfully creative community.

Thank you for journeying alongside me!

The sweet lady from PUA called back and took data from when I was doing housecleaning.

Apparently, people who were self employed during initial lock down of the pandemic could still qualify for benefits, even if they made too little to file taxes.

Unemployment had completely ignored this data when I had submitted it, and instead had focused on my moving into healing therapies.

Oh, what a sweet spin can now occur along further punt of the tangled ball which has become my case management!

(i have to look up title’s quote source…)

A PUA specialist called me this morning, then apologized because her mouse suddenly stopped working and thus she could not follow through with her questionnaire.

I began laughing – cackling in mirthed delight, actually – joking with her to “back away quickly” because the field of null around me diverting any attempts of functioning must be reaching her.

She chuckled upon hearing my story with unemployment and being constantly bounced between status of employed vs. an independent contractor in the system, and assured me it was her mouse’s battery.

I look back at the mess that employer made of my life in March 2020, so worried that I would somehow be the downfall of his business and cause him disaster.

I mean, I filed my taxes as an independent contractor when it turns out that by law he misrepresented my position and I should have filed as an employee.

Unemployment then says, “Oh no, you don’t get to use your most recent earnings for our calculations. We are going to base funding on when you lived most in poverty.” And then, they jerk me away from prospectively more favorable calculations from PUA.

PUA might calculate my case differently and get things moving, finally – but, I told the gal that, likely, any efforts would just further lock my case in tangled administration.

She sympathized and thanked me for being so positive and laughing. I said, “Of course. Otherwise, I would be screaming and crying!”