Simulation

I had woken early in the morning, acknowledging I had not dreamed of him in the night and resolute to not dwell on it.

However, after I fell asleep again, I dreamed I had in my hands his previous university attendance portfolio which showed various classes he had taken and he had accumulated an even greater amount of student loan debt than I have.

He had chosen my same gamble to invest in a future with the goal that someday more than enough money would be earned to comfortably pay the loans back.

Luck and good fortune had favored him, therefore, it could still favor me.

When I dream of him, I am given messages of acceptance and loving inclusion which restore my pride’s status – and I realize just how much circumstances harmed me by this positive contrast to their negativity.

I wake up from these dreams of him with a new option on how I would like to view and feel about everything, knowing that a cherished and beloved peer thinks highly of me – even if only in my imagination.