Recalibrating

One could think frustration
Is something easy to beat –

Especially when you have
Access to new resources.

When mine were stripped,
Rage flared to immobilize.

I fought severe lockdown,
Recognizing the dangers.

I kept myself from screaming
At circumstances preventing.

I rallied valiantly against the
Depression smothering Hope.

Once we got away, I thought
All that influence dissipates.

But, muscle memory dictates
Until you train it to new things.

There is backlash when
Similar thematics repeat.

Time for quiet’s solitude
Is needed for processing

Before new confidence
Improves associations.