Month: May 2022

As patterns begin to repeat with places revisited, subconscious management begins recognizing where data is more relevant. Anxiety then tenuously relaxes as functionality increases at the right times and places.

I see her there, in her coat and gloves…

Walking her dogs.

She doesn’t realize how much she matters.

I pull into myself and retreat like a snail that got its eye stalks poked.

One would think there would be Choice in the matter.

She dreamed she guarded the younger woman from bullets with her own body.

What was it about protecting his interests that she just couldn’t let go?

Even after she disconnected, she had yet another dream where she proved her qualities over the vapid superiority of another.

Why were surface facades still valued over deeper levels? Why dream of that family’s inclusiveness as a desire?

She knew how to be on her own, and being on her own as a genuine contributor was better than being with others who did not truly see her.

Why was I saved from engulfing oblivion?
What purpose here in absent communion?

30 years.

10 years.

3 Years.

1.

For all of my hard work, on my one day off I wake up with a crimp in my neck, causing a migraine that won’t relent.

Is my life just layers of suffering? When the pain comes, this messaging imbeds.

It is difficult to trust others these days – though perhaps, it has always been this way.

It seems to be just a matter of time before you are seen as Expendable: either it happens upon initial contact, or becomes an inevitable.

One’s own spiritual and intellectual strength.

I am being directed as a catalyst to help move people on to their next positive levels of purpose.

I enjoy this while in the specific role as a healer

But, I do not like it when I am used for others’ selfish gains.

I am angered when left empty from greed’s drain.

Let beauty no longer be only skin deep.

Let it come from Within.