Month: September 2022
Without A Home
The weariness works against positivity. At most, a standoff can be achieved where one can still laugh and function while enduring heavy burdening.
(Tarzan Boy – Baltimora)
Movie Pick: Beastmaster
“AND DAAARRR…”
“PHANTASMAGORICAL!”
“Resplendent”

“Secretary Bird”

“Cuttlefish”

“Spirit Of The Owl”

“An Angel Visits”

“Dragon Chazing Sphere”

(When I’m Gone – 3 Doors Down)
A Life Worth Living
When I was younger, I thought I must focus on pushing myself to find and fit into societal roles – but, I had to create my own because preestablished ones were too confining.
As I have matured, I am finding it more important to carry forward the skills I acquired – and to evolve them in such ways that show more clearly my personal diversity.
Learning Curves
Finding someone you positively connect with on a deep emotional level is a key to successful bonding.
(Love – Finding Hope)
My Lot
Days pass, limited in their spread
As working angles for daily bread.
Nights stretch, leaving sleepless
Those parts of me still restless.
Did You Know?
Bbq chips and bananas together provide two sources of potassium!
A Night’s Events
The car ran over something hard and metal on the way to work this morning.
I could hear it clanging and hard bounce-banging around underneath and against the car’s carriage for a few seconds before rattling away into the distance.
I thought the car had lost a part because I had not seen anything on the road.
Maybe it had blended in with the dark, smooth matrix.
When I drove the rest of the day, I listened for the car to make weird noises that would indicate something next stage deconstruction was happening.
After 10pm, I headed to a gas station on the way “home,” and at last I heard a sound and felt the performance shift off-kilter.
Darn!
I pulled into the station for gas, got out, and found that I had a flat tire.
Ok, I could deal with this.
However, in process of clearing out the back trunk region to reach the spare, my hand got into something slick that had leaked from a mystery container – and suddenly I felt and tasted lots of oil in my mouth!
A great time to panic!
Don’t panic!
Is this a problem?!?
I quickly walked into the mini mart to use the soap – oil-cutting dish soap, please! – and washed my hands several times at the front sink while nervously chattering about the issue to the clerks behind the counter.
Then, I returned outside and called 911 with calm voice, yet shakey laughter.
“Um…am I going to die from this?”
And then I couldn’t find the container to identify what my hand gotten into.
“I know this looks bad…” I told the kind dispatcher on the phone who was keeping me company, “but I can’t seem to find the container!”
What did I do with it?!?
I began further casting about to find it, going so far as to rumage through the garbage cans by the mini mart’s doors.
I had no recollection of what happened to it after I realized I could be in danger.
I sifted hrough miscellanious refuse, bemusedly lifting up an oil-stained bag – only to find it contained a partially-eaten, long donut in it.
I realized that I was blankly inspecting it, looking like a befuddled homeless person.
I felt so embarrassed.
The paramedics arrived to a scene where the garbage from the back of my car that I had planned to throw away was strewn around on the ground behind like large, picked through candy wrappers on a late Halloween evening.
Just then, I at last found it!
The container revealed as brake fluid.
The paramedics assured me that I would be fine – and then proceeded to change the flat tire for me!
Lucky they did because it was stuck on the mount bolts from rusted mud, and they had to pound on it to get it free.
In the original scenario, there would have just been me under the parking lot lights at 11pm, futiley beating on the tire like an unskilled monkey.
When they finished, I gratefully thanked them and gave them each my card, telling them to look me up so that I could help them keep saving people more comfortably.
As they were leaving, we wished each other goodnight, and I called out cheerfully that they had helped set me back on my path – so the night was going well for me!
Confidence
It seems that competance in the face of adversity should instill confidence, but for me it is as if that recharge capability of battery got waterlogged and is no longer accepting electrical signals – like as occurs after your cell phone has fallen into the bath water.
The Difference In Me
As a healer, I cannot allow myself to be bound by presupposition’s limitations as other people have the luxury to do. I must be open to a wide diversity of people’s individual needs and belief systems.
Leverage
When you are in a difficult situation, there is sometimes found space for you to rework your life toward better advantage.
“Great White Sharks”

The Sun Never Sets On Love (Song)
By Athena Stairs, September 28, 2022
On the road of those forgotten, I have set out on this quest
It’s a chance for soul’s dominion, where I give the world my best
While it sees me as a mirage and I hide though I am proud
It is better in seclusion that I tease apart this shroud
All the words that you once told me bounce around inside my brain
At the time we sparked in passion, thought our union was insane
Across worlds we live expression, different tracks where play our game
But you know as well as I do that our hearts can love the same
If I told you that I need you, would you come when hear my call?
If I asked for your forgiveness, would you then give me your all
While I’m bound to limitations, you have everything at hand
In our complex reinvention we’d become better humans
Now I know you’ve yet to feel that in this hope’s security
We could infuse with our vision what the world has craved to see
But what’s new is rarely perceived until fan that kindred spark
What we each bring to the table is a rarest form of art
Won’t you tell me that you see me and you think that I’m the prize?
I have longed to gain a partner with the courage such as mine
Yin and yang we’d flow together, light and dark dynamics twine
Once love can be reimagined, it tansforms into Divine
(Big bass drums, groovin’ beat rhythms)
(Bodies – Drowning Pool Video)
Her Plea
“Just because you think I need ‘training’ does not mean you should leave. Invest in me.”
(What Do You Mean? – Justin Bieber)
The Masses
This is not just for them – but for me
Time’s Dilemma
Driven by hungry
Restless waiting,
She traveled in
Looped spirals
Seeking what
This is all for.
Tech Noir, Definition By “Yes, Wikipedia…!”
Tech-noir (also known as cyber noir, future noir and science fiction noir) is a hybrid genre of fiction, particularly film, combining film noir and science fiction, epitomized by Ridley Scott’s Blade Runner (1982) and James Cameron’s The Terminator (1984).
Es-sential
She looked forward and saw those stopping;
Looking behind, she saw those beginning.
Then suddenly, he was there before her:
A man unbound – like her – by dictates.
(Tech Noir – Gunship)
“Hidden Upstrean” (Video)
“Hidden Downstream” (Video)
E.R. Lobby
“I am going to kill myself when I get home,” said the lady next to me quietly on the phone.
And while I tried to nestle sideways, cramped on the waiting room couch, that inner voice of mine said, ” What if..what of this…what if…?”
Thusly, once space cleared a little more, I gathered courage, sat down in front of her unassuming, and asked, “So is it true what you said? Are you really going to kill yourself?”
Thus occurred the beginning of a new friendship.
The Drill
She ate, yet felt without sustenance; drank, yet felt no replenishment; loved, but was not fulfilled – only survived by strength of will.
(When You Grow Up, Your Heart Dies [Don’t Let It ] – Gunship, Movie “The Breakfast Club”)
The Grim Reaper
I do not need another near-death experience to awaken me.
I am quite aware of who and where I am – and what I should be doing!
Fight Or Flight
The continued pressure without reprieve has elevated stress reaponse within my system to where I am now on a quest to figure out how to break the body’s intent to run my adrenals off a cliff.
Omeleto Oscars: A Homeless Teen Meets A Deaf-Blind Man Who Changes His Life Forever
“Recallibration”

See the brown mantis resting?
“Lil’ Buddy” (Video)
Athena Stairs, September 25, 2022
As I left the gym after a workout, something winged by me quickly on the right, did a u-turn to my left, and then slammed hard into the white outside wall of the building.
It was unusual behavior, so I figured whoever the pilot was had gotten sensory overload from sudden huge screened absence of color.
When I investigated, I found out that it was a lovely bronze-brown mantis, so picked it up and let it rest on my hand while I captured some video.
Once finished, I took it to a safer natural spot of landscape. As soon as it recognized green things again, it took off flying and found a leafy bush to nestle within for recalibration.
Short Film: One Small Step, By TAIKO Studios
(Tears…)
Citizen Of The World
I believe that I would enjoy an international lifestyle, but it is important to have a base to come home to.
(Star Shpongled Banner – Shpongle)
Wait for it…
“Between Worlds”

(Rapture At Sea – Eastern Sun & John Kelley)
(Hanging Gardens – Classixx Full Album)
(Nocturnal – The Midnight)
“Home Grown”

Intervention
Hypertension or high stress – same effect.
Realized I could go back “home” and get a sample of cider and take with me my favorite bottle.
Sitting watching my old sunset view, listening to good music, and snap a picture.
My way – literally on the highway.
