Month: October 2022

I fuction well – if not more so – here than at our last three housing situations.

I guess it is because I am able to expand outward from this base into a receptive community, whereas before there was psychological suppression of personal expression.

I have got to get the owed money coming so we can get into a new place because the money we are generating is only barely holding.

I also must determine if we can qualify to buy a house, and I must asap begin working on the class extended – now due beginning of December.

It’s funny how when I am already managing so much, I have to learn how to keep that ball rolling and climb on top of it while running, balancing while working on next level growth.

But when you are reaching for the stars, gravity will only help if you figure out how to use it to your advantage.

I finally pushed and got an acupuncture treatment last week – and wow, what a game changer!

During the 45 minute soak-it-in session, I felt the energy zone between my heart and solar plexus jump once – then a second time in a cascadence.

It is important to note that this specialist always includes in treatments addressing the lymbic system for rebalancing.

I had not realized my “command center” was stuck, but it makes sense given all of the pressure.

My heart shas since stopped doing that compressed stress response that was more than worrisome, and I have been able to perform better on the elliptical,

Not being able to afford a vital $35 session shows the exacerbation of finances overcommitted to our survival during transition.

I guess it has “only” been 6 weeks, but they have been a top-heavy challenge for me to manage.

And now, I am wanting a haircut. And I want my gym membership back.

I want a place for our animals, belongings, and plants.

I want a home for our own creative expression.

Fall ushers in a closing, where summer was expansion and holding.

Strange how the seasons can affect more strongly in thematics.

With the holidays coming, I am missing old friends and family.

Luckily, I thought to take my jacket and longer pants.

On the mountainside watering the plants, the sun sets quicker and the cold night wind blows and permeates, signaling winter is coming.

My instincts triggered, awareness shifting: it’s time to find our new home.

Where will we land, this time? Is it ok to want for it to be so much better than before?

Fingers ache as begin warming again once returned to the heat of the car, and we marvel how we’ve come so far from once being so alone.

In this matrix where patterns repeat themselves until they either stop completely, or get passed on to the next generations, all that truly matters is the love and care that we give to each other, the mutual reinforcement as we honor each other’s validity, and the shared hope that circumstances can always be turned to better.

It comes down to simple caring for and looking out for the other beings in our communities.

Had she been wrong before? The times she tried and failed?

Maybe we are supposed to settle for less than our dreams…

But, if this is the case, she resolved she would not try with any other.

For why would you want to live only a fragment of life – when the rest is calling?

She was vexed at times that she still felt attached to him at the place that anchors the heart and travels through time’s portal, back into the very essence of the universe.

At least she had been given the sending in time to try to bridge to him, before he had announced his having a new girlfriend.

She wasn’t a “home wrecker,” and had made her bid open and honest.

Yet, it was hard to not get on herself for still wanting him.

Without proper amounts of rest for rebooting one’s neurological system, “little” issues become “large” and aggravation’s impatience sparks more easily.

Recognizing and acknowledging one’s own greatness is not always the easiest thing to do – especially if one’s nature is to be generous and humble.

Due to recent laws, if a tenant rents for over a year, the landlord is restricted in how much they can from then on raise the rent. This is causing landlords to either turn over tenants every year, thus only a year max rental is possible; or landlords are exhorbatantly raising rent now to cover prospective future market increased costs to buffer needs their own finances.

Additionally, this year judges are now permitted to approve landlords replacing tenants who did not pay rent during Covid who were before protected by a “stay-of-action” law. Thjs has resulted in a deluge of sudden evictions, resulting in a sudden greater demand for rental housing.

Add to this that to stay at lodging every month while seeking housing costs at minimum $2,700 per month, which means saving money for a new deposit and first month’s rent becomes near impossible, creating extreme difficulty in regaining housing stability.

One second is all it takes for a snuggly cat to infiltrate.

They say to “let sleeping dogs lie,” but more important is to not wake the sleeping cat!

What miracle of bliss is this?