Stream of Thought

Withdrawal

Previously punished extroversion can drive one so far into the habits of introversion that when one attempts to balance the self by ambiversion, sustaining efforts externally without external positive reinforcement and encouragement can lead one to feel too keenly deep levels of anxiety.

It then becomes a struggle for maintaining energy output to stay “out on a limb” as psychological muscles begin quivering in the silence of nonreceptivity to brave efforts given.

One’s survival mechanism of “conservation of energy” takes over, resulting in a snap-back reaction which leaves the venturer quaking in their own skin.

Photography

“String Theory”

Athena Stairs, November 21, 2022

“That we are all connected; God is conscious intention; that we are spirit manifested in this physical reality…”

When I held the large apple in my hands and tilted it, light sped in streams over its surface curves in such a way as to remind of spacial relativity planes that they show when discussing the fabric of the universe.

Tie in the symbolic meaning of the Apple of Knowledge as humanity’s origin story, and here are delightful concept art pieces in my mind that happened to evolve out of some marketing gimmick to get people to buy glitsy apples for their sitting tables.

The smaller one has more angular geometry that focuses the mind in more precise directions of bursting synergy, and the box is a nice container of various scented and shaped incense.

I did not buy the items because that’s money for objects to be sitting without much use besides turning while gazing upon them and day dreaming…

Wait a minute! I hope they are all still there on a shelf and waiting for me!

(They were!)

Myths & Legends

My New Stud Earrings: Chrysoprase Stone History

Chrysoprase means ‘golden leek’ in Greek antiquity. Its colors are apple green, light green and vibrant green.

A gem often used for its many virtues, chrysoprase stone is considered a love stone and is associated with the heart chakra. It is a natural remedy against insomnia and was used to detect poison, making this a very versatile stone. 

It is one of the most ancient semi-precious stones used by man throughout history and is well-known for its psychological and physical virtues. Indeed, many studies have demonstrated that ancient peoples such as the Greeks, Romans or Egyptians made daily use of it: for example, in the crafting of seals or jewels, but also of many other objects, whether for its beneficial or simply aesthetic virtues.

Traces of this can be found in the various historical accounts that remain, regardless of how ancient they may be: not only do we find a description of chrysoprase in the work ‘Natural History’ by Pliny the Elder (23–79 AD), famous Roman writer and naturalist, it more importantly features in a Bible passage which describes the city of New Jerusalem in detail: its streets, its houses and its public buildings. Its traces are found in the foundation of the city walls which is made of many precious stones.

Albertus Magnus wrote that the legendary Alexander the Great (356 BC – 323 BC), King of Macedonia and Greek conqueror, always wore one in his belt whilst in battle, evidently for good fortune and military victory. He believed that it fostered wisdom and helped him to make the right decisions during important strategic campaigns.

This until the day when, wanting to cross a river, a snake suddenly appeared and bit Alexander’s saddle: in the midst of the action, the indispensable amulet fell in the water. One can predict the rest of the story: the unfortunate encounter was a bad omen for him, who, unable to find the stone despite his searching, could never win a single battle again…

Much later, in the Middle Ages, it was believed to possess powers of invisibility: for this, it had to be held in the mouth. Others saw it as a stone which could detect poison. For example, if the stone turned colourless, it would indicate the presence of poison not far from oneself. It was also common knowledge that the famous green stone had the power to relieve certain ailments such as gout.

Of course, Alexander the Great was not the only one with a special interest in chrysoprase stone: Frederick II of Prussia adored it so much that he wanted to use it for the decoration of his palace; no doubt the semi-precious stone must have conformed well to the aesthetic codes of his time, as even parts of his furniture were embellished with chrysoprase.

Throughout each period of history, it found very specific uses: in antiquity, the Middle Ages, and also during the Victorian era! During the latter period, it was worn on many necks and fingers, i.e. for cameos, intaglios, beads or cabochons!

http://www.minerals-kingdom.com/stones-virtues/chrysoprase-stone/

Artistic Creation, Stream of Thought

What Is Bliss?

I worry for myself. I worry for others.

My Youtube algorythm has just sent me the lovely and dense album by the band Ulvesang that I have just posted.

Its tones resonate like those of Michael Hedges’ and its lush emotional saturation flows into my being, filling the aches of empty spaces.

I worry because this is what it feels like to be in love. From a recording, I am receiving soothing and encompassing cadences.

I worry because with technology now more easy to access, we are able to gain so much more positive stimulation that we as individuals and as a species have needed.

But, what about real love, romance, and the pure sensate joy of physical manifesting?

While listening and watching, hearing, seeing, and emotionally feeling, no one is on the other side, sharing this with me.

There is no two-way connection – just messages over time and space conveyed.

I am not touching, tasting, nor smelling in this beyond-long-distance relationship.

When virtual reality becomes such that our neurons are just plugged into a system, what then?

As our bodies whither away from lack of conscious, purpose-driven inhabiting – to what end?

I want to be “wild and free” – “home grown” with the dream of life truly unfolding.

I guess this means that I ought to just lean into and appreciate “suffering?”

Is this what it means to “happy?”

Stream of Thought

Sparks Of Hope

It is interesting now to have come so far as to be able to look back at how a message from this performer or that has helped me to survive and keep my sactity.

I do not credit them, for as I came upon each one, they were separated from the others and their messages were more cryptic and personal to their own reflections.

However, I took their inventions and sometimes even altered their original intentions to tweak their art’s symbolism to better suit my needs.

An alchemist works with in-the-raw simple and complex materials. The energy already crafted into these works held charges which would help boost me, and I am grateful for receiving.

Stream of Thought

Living Outside The Shell

A difficult task for a chameleon is to determine when it is safe to show itself. Until then, observers are misdirected regarding its personality.

The chameleon has learned to display “colors” to protect its vulnerability. Being able to shift fluidly between these “states of being” becomes primary.

To not move or act spontaneously became essential for its survival. Attempting to break free of these habits can cause tremendous anxiety.

Poetic Musings

In Many “Noble” Stories

The prince is in love with one woman, yet is “forced” to marry another for ensured status.

It is then customary, “if love is true,” for the first to take the role as concubine.

An accepted practice where once I may have accepted is now something I greatly despise.

Do not speak to me of such “freedoms” between the two in such a union!

Love must not be parceled out to whither in compromise!

Stream of Thought

Nature’s Symmetry

My left ankle has borne the brunt of twisting since I myself was a youngling.

It was long overdue for happening again, and as the walk was ending, a sudden dip-twist in footing got me.

But, I was surprised to also find right next to the site the side of a boulder with grooves cut out that lodged my foot perfectly so that I could stretch it.

It seemed as if it had been placed there as a courtesy!