Touching Base

It is interesting how we are expected to proceed forward in life without our internal parts aligned.

For example, the struggle to bring in enough income on a daily basis while paying exhorbitant fees for a roof over one’s head at a hotel tends to push one past sustainable energy expenditure limits on a daily basis, which can lead to burnout.

There is no time or space allowed for unwinding or pursuing the higher arts of art, music, language – or even socializing.

All is focused on the “here and now” while striving to ensure the continuance of tomorrow.

Therefore, once one is allowed to return to what society would refer to as “normalcy” (the basics, such as having a home to one’s self, again), one has to take stock of where they have been internally, what kind of repair needs to be enacted, and what one’s life goals should become now focused upon.

I dislike looking at myself while perceiving such a “ramshackle mess.”

But I know that I have made the best efforts to keep our family safe and healthy, and it is to be expected that inside – where we all hide our insecurities – I feel somehow less than worthy.