Month: January 2023

I am still in/affected – and my youngling’s fever has not stopped for seven days!

“The HTTP 304 Not Modified client redirection response code indicates that there is no need to retransmit the requested resources.”

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(So cool conceptually – chuckle.You mean my efforts have been enough? Why, thank you!)

Inside, she wept because she was not thirty, anymore: when her energy had not been tapped down to the marrow.

Oh, she was still vital and kicking – setting fire to the barriers trying to suppress her.

But she’d been mired in battle for so long that she could not fathom how she could ever reclaim a sense of normalcy.

Like moss as it grows interweaving, the matrix of complexities involved with moving into a new life paradigm must be nourished carefully.

Seriously?

How can it be so difficult to just merely stay afloat!

When the Angel Jibril came to Muhammad meditating alone in the cave, He commanded him: “READ.”

“I do not know how to,” replied Muhammad, for he had never learned – having lived his life as a shepherd and then as a merchant.

“READ!” commanded Jibril, squeezing him unbearably.

“I Cannot!” Muhammad cried out, gasping in pain.

“READ!!” commanded Jibril, squeezing him harder still.

(Ref: Qur’an)

The number 244 also represents strength, courage, and determination. It is a message of power. By creating a solid foundation and secure foundations based on your traditional values, you can make a solid plan with the help of the powerful number and spirit guides to find a higher light through a clear lens. May 10, 2022

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When you have layers of mazed compartmentalization developed over time from survivalism, it is necessary to present the same concepts in turn from slightly shifted views to gain internal agreement.

It wasn’t that something was necessarily wrong – just that it was wrong for her.

As Peter Murphy sang, “Look for what’s out of place:” something that creatives have no choice but to do when hounded by their inner muse.

That dischordant jangle in the back of her mind – that which she kept tripping over was employment.

It sucked everything out and gave massively less than what she was worth and needed.

For half the effort, I could gain the same.

Less effort, more returns.

Efficiency.

Time off for recovery.

I think we got the extended DVD Blue Ray Experience Covid – hahaha!

Giving out more energy that get in return is not an equation I can continue to participate in. It must be greater returns for reserved efforts so I have wealth beyond what I have dreamed of.

When you can see the veins tracing even the tops of your legs and a puffyness throughout the skin before now uncustomary, then my friend you know you’re dealing with one heck of a virus!

I must be my own to succeed where others fail.

With direct interaction, I can cultivate stronger relationships and ensure better results.

Maybe I have always been ahead of the curve, instead of (as I was taught) behind it.

I want a balanced life – one where I can work, cook, and have time with my family and creativity.

I don’t want to be pushed beyond Max, anymore.

I don’t want to feel like my shirt is always untucked, my hair is mussed, or that my coat tails drag on the floor

Like an underground dweller skittering to the surface under cover of night’s fall, she stayed on the edges of humanity, crossing over an outpost’s thin line just long enough to replenish their diminished water supply.

If I still must endure, I need better terms.

I do not take the yoke easily – and it better be fulfilling in purpose.

That niggling thought, that crimp of doubt on consciousness that would make others fear and cling to a trapping situation, finally defines and causes me to break free – pushing for my will’s expansion.

When her employer refused to give an advance on hours already worked, after a year of her riding out rough times in business with him.

People say “turn to family,” but having tried that, I have found our best connection is gained at a distance.

In this way, only the love filters mostly through – and you can cut off any meant or inadvertent poisonous conjecture.

121 is a very powerful number. It is said to be the key to success, love, and happiness. The symbolic meaning of that number is also said to be miracles. The combination of energies of the numbers 1 and 2 sends messages of hope.

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Variables already challenging became exacerbated in ways catastrophic.

In order to overcome, we began looking at these trials as “new norms” that must be accepted.

Day 1 & 2: Body fever and every joint and muscle pain-screaming.

Day 3: Prior symptoms shifting to pulse pounding and neck tension, reeling headache.

Coughs and sinuses with occasional life-jarring sneezes and swollen, sore throat are being kept at minimum by taking zinc, vitamin C chewables so tart they’d scare anything out of your system, and other supplement strengtheners.

Still unable to get rid of the feeling of being a bug pinned to the ceiling.

I am not sure who began the movement, but women are now given messaging of both “rely on a man” and “do it yourself.”

While it is important to be self capable, it is also helpful in raising and managing family lineage if you can partner and share the load more evenly between two, rather than all on one.

I must be getting better if dizzyness is worse.

The greatest thing that vexes me in a relationship is non-collaboration, where the load to keep things together is placed fully upon me while the rest of the family follows the lead of the elder who is not cooperating.

When I think of the crazymaking experienced by conscription to that dynamic and I look at how the details in my life can get so complex suddenly and take more effort to manage, I have begun thinking, “Why would I ever want to ask a man to help with any of this?!”

A cooperative man – let alone a dynamic, positively innovative one – seems to be even more rare now than a mythical unicorn.