Stream of Thought

Rebuilding A Dynasty

When I was a younger woman, there were not as many of the supports in society as there are today in certain regions. I encountered much violence, idiosyncrasy, and hypocrisy.

So I decided to build my world around a man that I loved and who had once been in love with me, determined to do all that I could to help restore him to happiness and keep our family progressively healthy.

His leaving suddenly without warning pulled the carefully stabilized pin of success’ security out from everything. What was important fell to the ground, and those willing to help had to be managed warily.

When there is a sudden vacuum, the need to dominate and control in others can suddenly swoosh in under guise of kindness and “rescue.”

Having everything one invested in suddenly burn into ruin and one’s status diminished with abilities conscripted toward fighting for survival can unhinge needed constructs in psychology.

As an individual, it is now very important that I do not ever allow someone to devastate me in this manner again. It has taken too long to gain any recovery.

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