She was untrained, uncentered, undisclipined, and uncooperative.
Add to this “on fire,” pissed off, belligerent, and more than mildly aggressive – and she was not in the best condition for him to want to be linked with her.
She didn’t understand what was happening between them nor why she felt such a strong compulsion to be next to him.
But, she realized her internal reactivity was not helping either of them – and that at the very least, she should not be allowing the churning emittance to affect and distract him.
So she turned to other healers, trying to assuage the turmoil inside and realized she was also suffering from that table’s chop-to-the-neck right occipital concussion two Christmas seasons ago when the chair slipped out from under her.
The poor girl was dealing with multiple physical traumas to neck and shoulders with resulted in complex pressures against her vagus nerve.
Yet, still, she sought the inner strength to take this jagged energy further into herself and create a neutral barrier to buffer between her and the man she held esteem for.
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