Month: May 2023

When my office mate requested that I spritz the plants every day I was there, initially I was irritated because it feels like I have a hard enough time keeping my own various tasks attended to.

However, I figured that I would benefit over time from participating in this little bit of making the plants happier.

Sure enough, today while I was tending them, I remembered how I used to feel kinship with my own of such types – back when I was just beginning as a young healer and my spirit was blossoming.

I figured out how to upgrade – Woot!

Foliage of heavenly-sweet scent when touched or walked upon, someday I shall have some again.

Today I planted green beans, snow peas, yellow and green zuchinni, mini tomatoes, artichokes, and pumpkins. Soon we will add flowers and herbs as we refresh and tend our mobile garden.

It must become enough – whatever good we can accomplish.

Where was love when
I felt more worthy and
Wasn’t worn to bleary?

Where was it when I
Still held my head high
While refusing to cry?

The numbers now claim
At my worst I am ready!

(“Ready Spaghetti”)

It ought to not require more pain to get out of pain.

I had been fussing to myself for awhile how tying tennis shoes can be quite irritating because I have to often readjust the tension throughout the day, depending upon what I am doing.

Then I came across a lightly used pair which fit me perfectly and let me turn quickly, and they have just a stretchy loop with a tension clamp for quick fixing.

At first, I scoffed at the “lazy hip” fashion statement of this design, but liked their look so much that I bought them, thinking that I would replace the hoops later with laces.

However, now that I have been using them, I thrive by their quick-release-and-tighten convenience!

Have you ever been worn so weary that life becomes dreary – and you can’t sleep because hypervigilance has you hypnotised?

Waiting through the night for my own light to push back the night.

Knowledge can be condenced into efficiency.

I do not have lifetimes in this one to learn the trades of masters.

I must distill to essentials to cultivate what I need.

And then, somehow, put it on the screen.

One must step forward in the direction they would like to go if they hope some day to arrive there.

“Embrace them” – squeeze them tight!

I wish that I could access and express all of the better parts of me, but right now, I am at a defecit.

This is what life is truly about!

I looked for you today at the local coffee shop, thinking somehow that you would recognize me.

But of course, if you were there, your eyes would have passed over me as I blended too easily into the scenery while securing the item that my car roof was carrying.

“Would you type?!!”

(Me admonishing my unhelpful touch keypad.)

Much better than quitting – and helps the heels kick up a little to break off what’s stodgy.

I literally cannot afford it!

To gripe in deep frustration or a type of bird that hides in the reeds.

Athenapedia.

The registration I protected has gone missing and to get a copy is difficult due to miring in California’s DMV system.

And I can’t get tech support from WordPress to help navigate the next storage space advancement.

All I can focus on without getting seriously vexed is putting one foot in front of the next.

I would like to think that low funds are a sign of needs being met and our situation stabilizing.

However, it takes new associative programming to no longer feel on the edge of being compromised.

Consciousness advocates for the body by voice while the body asks for help by conveying pain.

Healing happens when both are understood and tended to according to the self’s assessment.

A good healer trys to “speak” their client’s “language.”

When The Body Says No: The Cost Of Hidden Stress, By Gabor Mate

Discusses the effect of the mind-body link on illness and health and the role that stress and one’s individual emotional makeup play in an array of common diseases. drgabormate.com/book/when-the-body-says-no/

Shake It Off Naturally, By David Berceli PHD

TRE® is an innovative series of exercises that assist the body in releasing deep muscular patterns of stress, tension and trauma.  traumaprevention.com/

I was on a leading wave, trying to navigate by instincts that could not find their answering ping because the one I was looking to meet had not arrived – and would not for awhile, yet.

So I left Santa Barbara, turning away from the call to search in South California, and returned home to focus efforts on raising some beautiful children.

Time’s reflection shows how much we have all grown

Helping out a peer today, I found that at the end of the session I felt extremely vulnerable.

I guess I hoped she would count me as a friend.

When there is insecurity in the household, a mother’s duty has been to put on hold the personal self care aspects that she needs.

But when her children are grown enough to care more for their selves, it becomes her obligation to reclaim that which defines her own identity.

Would an extrovert appreciate an introvert?

However, I am external in specific situations.

It isn’t that I need more classes, but that I need time to practice and develop my skills further.

If I leave this site as it is and switch over to just posting photos and videos in Instagram, how then would I externalize my thought expression?

It seems I am reaching the limit of my free storage space.