Month: September 2023

I need pressure removed – not added to the equation. How do I reconfigure this thing!

Being me currently is like waking up from a coma to find others’ lives proceeded smoothly while mine was left broken on the curbside.

“Hello. My name is Athena, and I’m a suppressed creative trying to recover my identity after being persecuted and silenced by “polite society.”

If one more person tries to tell me that as a visionary I should get my head out of the clouds – when I should be learning how to embrace this gift more fully – I tell you, with this migraine, I am go-ing to SCREAM!

Hey, man…

We’re all just practicin’ here.

Nobody has to be perfect.

I rise to the roles that I can – and am allowed to play.

This concept that one can just reach out into a pool of gasping anchovies and derive sustenance may work if you have a big enough net to haul in a large enough supply, but does not apply to monogamy – so why expose myself and try?

Likely, the biggest issue from the car accident is that neurologically all my cells continue to fire alarm signals because I was “attacked,” which makes me feel more vulnerable and in greater need of soothing.

It is important to note that where I’ve come from in my past has not been by way of the Sea of Tranquility.

It has been a journey through ravaged lands where nearly everyone I met was some sort of “unhinged” or infected by others’ “crazy.”

It is not that I have an issue of low self esteem, but that I get discouraged if there is no plausible reason for me to be somewhere that I would like to be.

While I chafe at the limiting constrictions of employment, neither am I able to rest at ease by carrying all of the pressures of entrepreneurship.

Observant of her patterns, yet uncertain exactly how and where to change them.

She stayed up late at night, keeping watch for some unknown reason.

She was glad for the intervention because she had felt prodded by the visions.

Now, with no way to make contact, she was granted space to retrain focus.

A better car and some unfinished business.

Joy

Decompressing thigh and hip attachments.

They say that demand increases when there is less of a supply.

But it really depends upon trends in current perceived values.

Because I can’t, I keep doing anyway.

If I calculate love expressed and lost, the odds either increase in favor of repeating – or they brim on the verge of tipping into success.