Listening to the leaf blower as she sat in the relative serenity of the open compound courtyard, she reflected upon the quivering inside of her that was learning that it could begin to broaden and slow in its wavelengths.
Being back on a campus now that her children were no longer caught in the ragged throes of their disrupted teens gave her an awareness that the world was truly at last coming to be within her reach.
She had become so used to stopping and being still that her features now would settle as if granite.
With freezing night temperatures, winter is an inevitable fact which must be greeted warmly.
How is it even possible and such a struggle for me to feel any self confidence?
I guess I am too busy attending to other things to nourish my own ego.
I mean, what would that process even look like?
Puffing and strutting my stuff in front of a mirror?
Talking nyself up to myself with words of pride and praise?
Maybe I just give out so much energy that only scraps are left for my basic reboot functioning.
And now I am overcompensating due to more injuries.
Why do some people “have it easier” where others seem to not?
It’s all relative, depending upon which angles you examine any given situation.
“I have abilities,” she told him nervously but earnestly.
“I know you do,” he affirmed.
“My confidence is just shakey and insecure because I keep phasing.”
There are no real known reasons.
Make the best of it!
The idea is that God is manifested in our expressions of love and forgiveness.
All the love she had put into him, he then gave to another –
Which is not the best way to show the giver appreciation.
Of love, regard, and virtue.
It seems best to hide one’s insides at times to avoid being ridiculed.
I cut my hair to dissolve entanglements.
See the guitar and music stand?
Sunlight captured upon a leaf.
Often a facade meant to hide pain.
It is better to be love-starved and alone, than to be in a relationship and still love-starved.
When things go not well, we can at least laugh at ourselves and the predicaments we may have gotten ourselves into.
She always started slow and then could outpace the rest once she felt the rhythms of the event and how the others set their paces.
But she turned suddenly from the track, resolute that this race was not one that she was going to finish.
I must be careful about what I form attachments to as I am striving to reach new heights.
That’s it – right there:
I “do not appear to exist.”
Meaning, I am either “just passing through this universe.”
It could also mean that I am “not easily perceived” for my truth of existence.
Or how about most importantly: I am not on this planet to merely exist and do nothing!
/ˈan(t)ēˌmadər,ˈanˌtīˌmadər/
Physics
(Oxford dictionary)
My aspirations make a much better story.
The tale of an impish spirit that phased through walls of conformity to prove that love and will’s good intentions are capable of overcoming all obstacles.
It doesn’t need to matter if there is no one to receive or appreciate me.
We must all rise to our own challenges and be our greatest cheerleader.
Just because something mattered at another time does not mean that it still matters today.
Unless someone has a vested interest.
/ˈkriptik/
adjective
Having a meaning that is mysterious or obscure.
Zoology
(of coloration or markings) serving to camouflage an animal in its natural environment.
(Oxford dictionary)
After a lifetime of hiding, it is a delicate process to gain confidence in revealing one’s self – even to one’s self.
Are we seriously just trying to stick with the “safety” of “status quo?”
“Status quo” is now a corrupted code being decommissioned and erased behind the scenes while the front of its mask hides what is happening.
Don’t just keep standing around and pandering!
Do something meaningful that positively impacts the world so that when that facade dissolves, we’ll still have worthy values to hold onto!
(Title play with words)
We all build them…
And then cry as they are sacked and pillaged –
And gravity sucks them back down to earth to crash in a fiery, explosive ball of imploding fury.
A person can become gruff and hard-headed when they want something that is denied – and they instead seek solace in indulging their own wild magic.
Everyone has their own opinions on how their lives should unfold.
I guess mine involves circumnavigating the “fabrics of ‘foundation.'”
Zoom in central, then zoom back out and see its long beak to left and feather crest flare to right.
“Just stick to the script. It will be a good one…” he attempted to pursuade her.
“Yes, but – I am not here to play this part. I need to promote something more forward-thinking.”
(Title play with words)
I can feel the stirrings of other things that I used to be trying to reawaken, but it is as if they are buried underground and held down by coming winter.
Freeing them seems to require too much effort and my body is not currently up to shoveling.
Maybe they need to mulch-out a bit longer.
For now, I just want to focus on music.
Like waddle the last foot toward my car with the flat of records to-be-sold clasped between my knees as I fumble for the keys to open the door.
A question and an answer:
“A sentence in the Enigma song Rivers of Belief goes as follows:
‘And when the Lamb opened the seventh seal,
Silence covered the sky.’
There is a Biblical reference here. But I would like to know, what is the meaning of the line and what does the line imply?”
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“The lines are an allusion to the Book of Revelations, more specifically the end of chapter 7 and the beginning of chapter 8:
[Chapter 7: 17] For the Lamb which is in the midst of the throne shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of waters: and God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes.
[Chapter 8: 1] And when he had opened the seventh seal, there was silence in heaven about the space of half an hour.
[2] And I saw the seven angels which stood before God; and to them were given seven trumpets.
[3] And another angel came and stood at the altar, having a golden censer; and there was given unto him much incense, that he should offer it with the prayers of all saints upon the golden altar which was before the throne.
(See BibleHub.com for alternative translations of Revelations 8:1.)
The song title “Rivers of Belief” refers to the role that rivers, sometimes sacred rivers, play in some religions. For example, Jesus was baptised in the river Jordan. For Hindus, the Ganges and the Yamuna are sacred rivers in India. While the song almost literally quotes the Bible, the line “I will return” can also be read as an allusion to reincarnation, which is a belief in Hinduism (among other religions).
The meaning of the seventh seal and the silence that follows its opening is a matter of Biblical hermeneutics. The Wikipedia article about the seven seals, for example, summarises five views: the preterist view, the historicist view, the futurist view, the idealist view and the Mormon view. The answers to the question In Revelation 8:1 does opening the seventh seal do anything? on Biblical Hermeneutics Stack Exchange present an additional set of interpretations. It seems that the meaning of that line remains open to debate.”
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