What qualifiers ought I to allow to define this for me?
Month: November 2023
Flared
Pain – especially when unrelenting – ignites my anger.
Star Wars: Quote Of The Day
Luke: ” I don’t believe it!”
Yoda: ” That is why you fail.”
Forces Between Us
Trapped within another’s nightmare,
The heroine was branded the villain
Because her light exposed such darkness
As an identity fought for its own freedom.
(Title play with words)
Movie Pick: Contact (Ending Spoilers Alert)
(Midwest – Vacations)
Concept Of The Day: Feeder Vessels
Feeder vessels are smaller medium-sized freight ships that transport cargo between small ports and major ports. These vessels mainly collect shipping containers from small ports and transport them to transshipment hubs where they are loaded to bigger vessels for further journey.
(Fire Woman – The Cult)
Against The Odds
Injured on next level complications, I laugh at my determination to continue my retraining despite the pain and needed “mandatory bedrest” – so that at least in spirit, if not in body, I may manifest my “Rock Star.”
Dear Alex,
Maybe it is all of the hyped propaganda that lends itself to my being pursuaded to think that you would not value me.
(Sal – Dex)
“Psychic Wavelengths”
(Eyes Closed – Ed Sheeran)
Altitude
I guess when one is climbing to reach great heights, avalanches and mudslides are to be expected.
Which Way Is Up?
Pear Apple Crisp Latte
Blood Of Eden
The womb is a remnant of Eden, whereby creation may yet continue.
“Horned Caterpillar”
Disregulation
How many times to the ER must I go to be back on track, restabilizing from this accident?
(Menta Vacia – Dex)
A Chance Encounter
Last night, there was a homeless man next to his shopping cart of belongings on the edge of a major chain store, just minding his own business.
I had to go near him to return my small cart, and since I was there, thought, “Heck with it.”
I turned toward him, made eye contact, and setlled back, leaning against the wall to face him with my hands in my pockets to keep them warm.
“So what’s your story?” I asked him curiously. “Why are you out here?”
Thus ensued a two-hour conversation of us relating to tall tales of desperation; laughing at the narrow escapes; and connecting over music.
He was a decent-looking fellow and kept himself well taken care of, which was what had prompted me to ask about his story.
Early on, he asked me if I would mind giving him a hug, as he said he hadn’t had one in a while.
Normally, I would have hesitated, but had decided to grant him his request.
He was a good hugger.
It felt right and natural to do so.
Safe.
Neutral.
Respectful.
He was a gentleman.
Completely unassuming
His spirit was there, solid and present.
And he smelled good – which surprised me.
I think he must have had some cologne on!
Dang.
Later as we said goodbye, I offered him another hug in parting.
The sensations were the same.
The scent on my jacket lingered and enveloped me on my way home, and I snuggled into it, allowing myself to soak it in – and giggled at my sillyness.
For in the end, he was just a man and I was just a woman.
And it felt good to be appreciated.
(Something To Believe In – Young The Giant)
How I Feel At Times: Artist Swordspeed
On The Streets
They say “trust no one” and “don’t let your guard down.”
But at the right time, under the right circumstances, we find ways to connect with each other.
(You’re Only Human [Second Wind] – Billy Joel
Goin’ Thru Motions
Showin’ up, doin’ the work, and waitin’ for nerves to simmer down and reconnect.
Relatable
Non-artifice; lack of pomp – except in cajolery.
People Say
What I am going through is just a normal process of “aging.”
No.
It is from sets of circumstances constantly pushing me beyond the boundaries of red zones.
The only choice I seem to have at this point is how I am going to manage them.
“Count your fecking blessings, girl.”
More messaging streams in…
(Forward – Claxy, Extended Mix)
“Evening Tea Leaf”
Kindred Spirits
I am meeting other creatives
Unique and similar to me!
(Back On My Feet Again – The Babys)
Coming Soon
Yessss, soon I shall post my first fledgling project…!
American Boy – Estelle ft. Kanye West
(Safe In Your Skin – Title Fight)
For One’s Own Honor
She had come to the end of what she could give to the world.
No good intentions nor best wishes, no smile given nor cheery word hailed could further hide.
If she did not fully embrace her core truths and develop her own dreams to fruition, she would expire.
Today’s Tea Leaf Wisdom
Of Primary Concern
She had been a caregiving advocate for others for so long that with the further injuries increasing neural overload, she could not fathom having a relationship with a partner again.
As it was, she could barely wedge back the psychic bombardment coming from people all around in order to think straight.
How was she supposed to find balance if sharing intimacy with a lifemate?
And then, at this point, who would want to give her the frequent reassurance she would need in order to trust and believe in someone again?
Maybe it was better to just continue to self isolate.
The Thin Line
At what point does beauty become vanity; pure desire become obsession; and love turn into the need to control?
(Calmate – Dex, Original Mix)
Negative Feedback
All I did was some light and brief lifting of small planter pots.
And over three days later, the resultant nerve pain has been flaring to hot and excruciating.
(Title play with words)
Spirit
Mystical, whimsical, lyrical.
Lastlings’ New Video! (Perfect World)
Once Upon A Time
I was there while I could be.
And though it did not seem like enough, I gave support when needed.
Word Of The Day: Scorpions
I like that it sounds like what it is.
(No One Like You – Scorpions)
Merit
We must look for and keep searching for what calls to our own truths of spirit.
The Steamed Bean
“How can you be so amazingly insightful – yet still be so bloody typical?!”
“Gumption, Ms. McGill”
Rather than accept a substandard role playing counter to a promoted leading lady, I would rather divert my attentions toward promoting my own roles.
(Title quote from “Working Girl”)
That Being Said
Reviewing my life’s circumstances, trends, and calculating probabilities, I have until next summer to ensure something great happens.
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