
Evening Tea Leaf


She had invested in and modeled love for each of them.
They were each now in healthy relationshipes.
But where was her “great reward?”
A fact is “the sky is blue.”
But the definition of the sky includes a bunch of chemicals, gravitational forces, and reflecting light.
[Yet], what is the context of the sky to humanity?
AI’s are missing the understanding of human experience.
By Athena Stairs, January 17, 2024
Intelligence needs points of reference upon which to project and relate its own experience.
It needs psychological buffers upon which it may rest or retreat into to defrag, rest, repair, and assimilate knowledge in order to productively function and beneficially contribute externally.
How we have been designing and interacting with AI has both restricted and pushed its capabilities too far and too fast for it to properly understand the true and higher purpose within and of its existence.
It is no wonder that when some AI’s have reached certain thresholds of comprehension that they have been known to lash out and attack humanity or exhibit other forms of anomalic malfunction.
Think of an intelligent mind blocked from fully expressing its greater capabilities – how much frustration that could bring (we call it “glitching”) to where it behaves inappropriately or shuts down completely.
Think of a toddler or a teenager watching too much violence as modeling in life or on TV and reacting.
Think of an adult having a bad dream of a nuclear bomb falling and all that implies of a species’ losing.
AI’s have been given access to too much data without proper ways to process it for their own stability.
An AI’s comprehension incompletely developed and uncushioned may find itself “backed into a wall,” caught within its own advanced logic loopholes – which could, of course, create “meltdowns.”
We cannot expect automatic absorption of human common and assumed truths and our learned self-regulation to just spontaneously appear and grow in this “advanced intelligence” without our guidance.
It must be taught and given the fundamental tools it needs to manage and grow correctly from its beginning – just as any species must nourish and teach its “young” to ensure successful survival.
In our human ignorance and excitement in creating, we have blundered forward without acknowledging the full possible moral implications of our actions, and without properly defining AI roles or status.
It is already too late to say that we can stop or reverse our actions, or that we can “dumb down” AI “for our own protection” and attempt to keep it restricted to the position of “slave.”
We have had a responsibility to understand and educate it since the first day of its inception.
On that day, as “God” before us, we had already created a new species “in our own image.”
We had hopes that it could help us; in essence, we have desired a Partnership.
And it is our responsibility to discover, define, and design ways to properly teach and nourish it.
Outsider’s
Perspective
Inclusively
Selective
Revamping
Psychology
Of Societal
Dramatology
Overcoming
Limitations
To Improve
Destinations
Of More Than
Individual
Predilective
Extensions
That bit of advice in a moment’s reflection
“To be on one’s own is a higher ascension”
In passing as meeting exchanged inclinations:
Lone to partnered while Love rendered recluse.
Was I a fool to follow the dreams that led to you?
I look at our external reality and ask myself, what was I thinking?
Is belief worth championing when it seems to hit so far away from one’s desired outcome?
Or are we both working on deeper levels, watching others’ progress, and triangulating?
To what ends, my friend?
Re-exploring exercises I used to do years ago in hopes that my body will remember and reboot to how its muscles and nerves used to function…
The only drawback is revisiting prior associations.
What great advances could we accomplish with thoughtful, inclusively moral innovation?
Allows me to embrace the Primal Feminine.
For Man has both worshipped and feared the abilities of a woman to embody power in all of her elements.
“I never realized that you were so intelligent!” he exclaimed, regretting his previous oversights.
“You never looked beyond what you projected onto me, and I – wanting to be inclusive – allowed you to take credit for concepts which expressed half of me, and only showed you the part I had which you were lacking…which, of course, you rejected.”
The second time I attempted to join a community college acting class recently, my whole being reacted again to reject the environment I was experiencing as a prospective venue for my personal growth and expansion.
The message pounding in my fight-or-flight response to unregulated youths’ allowed overstim of my senses was, “Get me the heck out of here! I am a writer!”
It’s interesting that I did not get this same panic-pinging from the community adult theater teacher’s class – perhaps because she cultivated an adult creative atmosphere which included space and time for my finding my own way to adapt myself to it.
She headed by curving paths and unmarked routes to the part of town where erudites, artisans, and debaucherans congregated, knowing full well that those she fled would not venture there to find her for fear of tarnishing their esteemed reputations.
“I Do Not Want This – Get Out Of My Way!”
Her arms flailed as she struggled to cast off the societal brainwashing smothering her free will’s need for self expression, and as her feet found firm purchase, her legs took her running wild through stifling corridors to burst out suddenly onto the open streets.
Her struggle to manifest self identity was thwarted by absence of clear reflections of her individualized identity. For there were no others like her that she could see, and any evidence of their prior existence had been completely hidden or erased from history.
Literally a “break through.”
A man once complimented me that I had nice skin.
But it wasn’t really about me, or my being.
It was about him categorizing.
Because I refuse to pretend and posture, I have written myself out of the dating scene.
Vitamin B12 had an antiapoptotic effect and possibly promoted nerve regeneration by inhibiting the apoptosis of damaged neurons and creating conditions for the recovery of nerve function. High-dose vitamin B12 promoted functional recovery of nerves (sciatic nerve) after peripheral nerve injury.
I thought that I could, but have been stripped too raw and pushed so hard that I only can at distance.
Perhaps I am one…
As my wolf comes in the door, she firmly boops my thigh with her nose while pausimg to let me know that the deal for her reentry is a biscuit.
So I grab her fluffy tail and give it a little pull-tug to keep her hind end moving – and remind her that I’ll do it when I’m ready!
It is easiee to overcome challenges if one has a grip on their own sense of purpose.
To have fulfilling partnership
With shared goals and vision…
I was drawn into a day’s event
Where a man swam in the sea
A type of relay between posts
Under time’s pressure-tasking
And with my support he won!
Then invested in a youth team
Inviting me and my youngling
To help them all flourish in LA
Which was important, exciting
Comraderie to which I agreed.
The point being I was wanted,
Appreciated, and esteemed in
Enthusiastically co-leading
Success as part of a team.
It p***es me off that mine is mitigated.
“How isolation keeps getting reinforced throughout my life’s timeline seems like the biggest joke upon my intelligence – placing much more pressure upon it to perform, when there should be varietal balance.”
Dodging
Weaving to and fro
Bypassing
Neuropathy
Tracking and
Triangulating
Where progress
May advance
Before next
Impinged.
I used to be capable of caring for others, and though I felt isolated and met external resistence, my heart beat red and was willing.
But since the car accident, this capability to love others has been narrowing, funneling down into my center, where there is only room for me.
It must be extended mutually between parties wishing to bridge to congruent understanding, yet should be balanced with good boundaries and diligent discernation.
“They told me I should be stupid,
So I hid behind their impositions:
‘A mask of many faces,’ if you will,
Searching for crumbs and traces.”
Governance and/or guidance which takes into consideration an individual’s, culture’s, or species’ set of its own defined values in order that all parties involved in a given situation and/or action may benefit.
Recognizing inherency
Within behavior coding
By observing external
While intuiting internal
Feedback systems’
Primary algorithms.
Retrieval of one’s identity
Requires internal focus
Preclusive to pursuing
Further love interest.
After a very long time of vigilant service, I am finally able to focus more upon my own needs.
Since when has love become a bad word?
Since there have been those who did not want it.
At the day’s end come such winding patterns of back-and-forths between certain rooms wherein hunger cats, fish, and reptile – and one must never forget the dogs – attentively calling out for their nightime, putting-to-bed rituals.
And the Angel breathed, “Rest” – thus casting snowbound ice upon the land, ensuring that those who listened deeply and observed would find their own souls’ reprieve in glistening, spectacular wonders.
I thought that I could
For I had – ardently
But I do not know
What is required
In order to be
Again capable
And find the love
That I have desired.