Dear Alex,

I am confused regarding how to manage my situation.

I can’t discern clearly which priorities to focus upon.

They say “look within for the answers,” but I am too bogged down internally.

Or “give it over to a higher power,” but there is not one that I trust implicitly.

I have an external support team, but each person helps with only a fragment of my “dilemma.”

Ultimately, I am the center; the designer; the full weight-bearer.

I am also being argued with where it is not helpful, which is agitating.

Meanwhile, the disruption of the accident has caught up with me regarding finances.

I have been addressing this by staggering bills, but it feels like my grip is slipping – which has been causing me to panic.

While the insurance companies pressure me in attempts to prematurely discontinue responsibility, I also feel my own instincts trying to ramp me back up into going out to make my own money.

This is how I have primarily functioned until the accident: adrenaline bursts into intensive activity, spurring innovation for my family’s continued survival.

But I can’t currently perform in this way in order to overcome the challenges that I am facing.

My mind and body are unable to comply performance-wise – though spirit is struggling to keep willing.

These “multi-verse” pressures are jumbling up my instinctive impulses and skewing abilities to focus on what I can attend to right now.

Time is running out for my somehow being ready for launching into a new career by end of summer, if not forced to do so sooner.

I had hoped to use this recovery time to also finish my script and Bachelor’s degree while proceeding with the career retraining I am already halfway through.

But external resistances have been countering my worthy attempts.

And survivalism again conscripts.