Month: March 2024
“Cloud Ghost Shrimp”
“Tiny Ghost Shrimp”
“Emerging”
The Big Gamble
With insurance having unlawfully cut off my partial wage loss support and resulting pressures attempting to shove me back into the workforce prematurely, I have to decide if I allow this landslide to carry me where it will – or do I leap again with whatever skills I can muster to reach for a life less orfinary?
Extremes
Do I need to be an invalid to prove my disabilities?!
9 Ways to Learn Egyptian Arabic Faster
A perfect way to learn a certain language is by being surrounded by it all the time in different ways. So, to start you can start watching TV shows and movies in the Egyptian dialect, listening to music and if possible speaking with native speakers, which will help you to progress really fast…
Moving On
I know they were bound by their select speciality capacities or still progressing along furthering their learning.
But I can no longer afford to hold space for others’ limits in pursuit of my own healing.
“That One, There”
See the cloud person pointing?
“Antennae”
“An Ent Is Born”
Zoom center.
“Old Man Winter”
Remember Last Yeat’s Planting?
(Kissing Strangers – Usher)
Habibi
There was the hope that we could return to innocence, together.
(All I Have To Do Is Dream – The Everly Brothers)
“Dream”
“Come To Papa!”
Zoom…left cloud creature sending child to right…
“The Proud”
(What Yook You So Long – Armin van Buuren & Gryffin)
Dragon Flight: Whimsy’s Delight
Maybe, perhaps, I will garner a portion of my precious weekend hours to paint my toes dragon-scale green with blue stardust overtones and at last plant my waiting snow pea-lings, nasturtiums, and peacock violas.
For come Monday, I must ready for the fight.
(Waiting For A Girl Like You – Foreigner)
Habibi And Me
We rolled like playful otters
Over a surfboard on salty sea
As a huge great white encircled
Joining in our mirth-filled gaeity
As my spirit moved backward away
Observing such carefree pleasures
I knew that my issue was trusting
Abandon to unfettered measures.
(Dream 3/28/24)
Hyde’s Bride: Idlewyld
Bereft and somewhere deep insane, I wandered the streets between parlors of damnation and intermittent toilets tossed from buckets as streaming liquid sheets of putrescence.
Stumbling lost, dismissed as just another dreg for the dogs to feed upon or the wretched to bed, I was somehow left unaccosted and fumbeled through those darkly smoke-ridden, dismal streets until they one day just faded away into the open, rolling green vales of countryside.
As the rain washed away all traces of stench from me as if cleansing my soul for redemption, I happened upon an elderly farmer needing help with his dairy cow’s milking.
Since then, I bathe in the light of sunshine.
Word Of The Day: Nehmeh
“Grace” or “Blessing”
An Honest Woman
When one is no longer wanted but has invested in a partner who lives in another country where women are still viewed as property, it would seem best to keep to self mother and child born into their freedom.
I am thankful after years of prayer that though disappointed, there was no reason.
For in the dream I wanted him to know – sacrificing our safety for honor’s reason.
(Title play with words)
Little Grace
I dreamed that I had a daughter from a man in another country. She was an infant to toddler – but could’ve been by now six.
Nehme نعمة
(Title play with words)
(Show Me Love – Robin S, 1993)
“The Grid”
(It Don’t Matter To Me – Bread)
Forest Creed
Either we are hunted,
Or we are on the hunt.
At The Gym
There is a man there who when he sees me has been contriving to “be at the right place and time” in zones where I am going.
This has been happening more clearly, yet I still go out of my way to avoid and not respond to him.
I don’t like being tracked and maneuvered upon – especially since I have observed his desperate and frustrated loneliness over many months.
I could be flattered by this attention – but am not.
I couldn’t help but notice for some time his interest in other people who then rejected him, and now he has settled upon me.
I have not been his first choice – and at this point, I would not want to be.
Back off, man.
Dream Time
A younger David Gahan beckoned a younger inside me personally to keep going to the crest of the hill where he promised to help ease my worry by song and good company.
As I zombie-hunch shuffled, trying to not slide backward, and rallied to keep moving by resistant leg coordination, a starlet emerged next to me as the other striders streamed around us, onward toward their own destinations.
I in a ragged medical gown askewed by my struggles, and she in her top-dressed “nines” with makeup and hair perfect, turned right over the hill’s top and curved into his downward sloping vacation rental driveway.
Whereupon, she excitedly exclaimed it was amazing and that she had never been there before, and I sighed with relief saying “Ah, I like this house” (having recognized I’d been there before) – and wondered if David would let me first sleep some more.
(Valle de los Espojos – Eduardo Gatti)
Externalities
Functioning in each moment requires more multiple efforts to just perform one task smoothly and effectively, creating an overage of conscripting more broadly further related processing capabilites to support and enact such operationd, which compounds complexity in what “should be” simplicity.
Reclusion
I do not like being around peers when having to deal with these “disabilities.”
(Bad Dream – Cannons)
“Spriiing!”
“Kabuki”
PFFFFFFTTTT!
“Maybe once…maybe twice…”
Frequently
(If You Love Me [Let Me Know] – Olivia Newton John)
The Inevitability Of Demise
I withdrew from Bachelor’s degree classes to preserve their hope for the future and not allow any further damage to occur to them.
(Everlong – Foo Fighters)
The Raptor And The Gargoyle: Everlong
She had left that city of concrete stone desperation to seek the greener vales as he had suggested, knowing that he could not (or would never choose to) break his mold and stretch those binds of remaining ties.
She must only wish him happiness – though an ache of bereft loneliness would twinge deep inside if she remembered how she had once hoped that he would decide to join her.
Fretting
I am as of yet uncertain how to recover effectively from these spinal injuries.
There are some core connections rebridging, and both ham string tears are getting better.
But the upper lumbar spine is still twist-center-punch-pinched-unsteady-dangerous, while the mass of cervical damage with variable-shifting nerve compressioning is still mostly unapproachable.
(One For The Road – Arctic Monkeys)
Epic Proportions
“At least in my own life, I get to play the hero.”
Blasted Aftermath
“No, I do not agree that I should be happy with your decision to leave me for another in your pandering-to-stereotypically-accepted idealistic ludicrousy!”
One-Sided
More often than not, men are attracted to independence in a woman because they don’t want to put in the work’s effort to ensure a relationship is functional.
They want a woman who will cater to them, but ask very little in return.
Self-Sufficiency
Oh sure, men claim to want this in a partnership – until they compare their own performance and find their selves lacking.
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