I think it is best if I no longer try to restrict the roles I play to predefinitions.
Month: April 2024
One Leg In And Out
What is this world all about
With head and tail spinning
At once losing and winning
Seeking rain in a drought?
Above And Below
I began by networking for employment; then connected one representative of a resource to another; and then spoke with someone cognizant of gaps in community services – which launched me back into being advocate innovator.
At the closing of the career fair with visions of our world’s better future in my head, as pauper I apply for clothing services.
“Project Specialist”
Prime Directive
“Fixer”
In advocating for my community, can I also be here who I want to be?
How may I retain autonomy, if not anonymity?
(Training Season – Dua Lipa)
“Spring MF!”
(Decompression – Harrison BDP)
Clack-Clack-Clack
What is the point of wheels if they do not turn smoothly?!
(Dragging my “flat tire” wheel bag all over campus. All I need now are some bobbing antenae…)
Not Because Of You
I was on my way to doing great things before the accident and despite untenable circumstances.
To Higher Ground
Even if it were possible and a mate was vital and viable, it seems absolutely out of the question for me.
My pack’s survival depends upon my outsmarting injuries and enemies.
(You’re Everywhere I Look – Flirt Cavern)
“Pigeon-Holed”
Is that when they stuff a pigeon into a hole, unwillingly?
But then, what pigeon would willingly offer to get stuck into a hole?
And who and for what reason is there being any stuffing in the first place?!
Hyde’s Bride: I Won’t Abide (Vocals Pending)
“For the good of the Realm.”
That’s what they always say.
Then, it’s expected that the person they claim to love will stay there holding court for them, supporting them while they go off and breed with some demoiselle of “proper ancestry.”
Well…
No.
“For the good of the Realm” be damned.
I shall not dither about waiting for the one I have loved with all of my heart to cherish me as much as I cherish him.
Being handed off – traded – for younger skin and womb that has not borne children is the greatest insult ever to a Woman.
(It needed more venom; more anger; more assertion)
The Rule Of Three
In quick succession, my wage loss coverage was cut by entrapment’s misrepresentating (Ha!); I was told that I owed unemployment money instead of the fact that they owe me; and the petition of many invested years found its now closed way back to me.
“Faith In Humanity”
Part of a self portrait series called “Into The Light: Self Reflections.”
Chameleon
I am confused as to what I should be becoming – if indeed, I should be becoming something other than what I already am.
(A Symptom Of Being Human – Shinedown, Lyric Visuals)
Artifice
Sometimes it is necessary to trim.
“At It, Again”
Another Timeline
She had fled in order to not
Experience that pain again.
Far And Away
Where the cockelshells bloom
In the low tide ebbing at noon
And the sweet brine spray
Against cliff spritzes away
Memory’s musk of sunrise gone dusk,
That is where somedays will find me.
Dear Alex,
Have you heard the news?
Of course you have, for you are the one who created it.
Wild And Free
I am “producing” in my own capacity.
Redirection
What if I capture light in video and sound effects bouncing off of buildings, instead?’
“I’m Sorry”
“I think if you move your fish to a different pond, they’ll thrive and you’ll feel better,” sypathized the dryad.
Mission Impossible
She heard the news and felt her hope sever,
Hidden among trees with objects gathered
Of items tallied, most important tools seem
Stardust remnants of such fragile dreams.
A person walks past in front panning right
Left side shot of turtle, shadow-cross light.
Nature and she have a stoic commonality:
Dwelling on loss is not essential to reality.
(The Captain Of Her Heart – Double)
“The Golden Hour”
“Again?”
Twitch
I would like to force them all back with a flick of my wrist and a huge blast radius.
I could gather energy as unassailable intelligence and eradicate assaulting targets.
“I’m going to have to go with Wrath,” retaliated Mal to the Operant in the movie Serenity.
But I can feel these puppet string reactions pulling at me from their various directions.
“If you believe in morality and justice, you must act or be discounted – fight or flee.”
How do I just wiggle out of these traps and follow the moon and sun until I am free?
The Maze
Having chosen a path less traveled where tools are given by button pressing (though traumatic brain injury gets in the *&@#<% way of comprehending ease of use for functionality), this wily mouse is on the scent for something other than the usual entrapment of cheese while quivering from the “experiments” done to her body.
Of Frying Pans And Fire
As long as I deal with the insurance company on my own, they will talk with me and offer a pittance resolution if I sign off any further claims and ignore their willful harm to me.
If I get a lawyer, I must sign all control over to him to represent me, but the process will take longer, and as of yet, he has not explained what I get in return for relinquishing.
I would like to have a third option, one that lifts me safely and securely from this scene.
Between The Lines
One agency says they do not believe I am injured – using this claim to cut off support.
Another agency says that they cannot help me because I cannot yet return to work.
The one to help with retraining says they can’t help until my doctor releases.
The agency to help due to medical needs says “again ask the other agencies.”
Intervention
I had asked for help in my past situation.
I now have to work with methods given.
Self Doubt
It can tear a person apart.
Luckily, I am used to it.
Minds In The Water
The Worst Sheep Dog
(Too Much Information – The Police)
“The Lair”
“Firebird”
Retaliation
There comes a time when outpacing the violent cowards is no longer an option.
Privilege
“But she’s so ‘sweet and deserving…'”
No.
She hasn’t had to fight for right to evolve.
“Voices” In My Head
People given unchecked autority
Who should not be given authority
When they have used it to cause harm
Should not have any rank in my own head
Aftecting long after their presence.has fled.
Tactics
When it comes to war, it is best to target the true source of evil, rather than innocence.
Too Many Paw-ns
The reason I dislike the game of Chess is that the goal is to achieve absolute slaughter.
Counter Attack
As they say, “fight fire with fire,” fight Man with Man.
Vengeance (Will Be Mine)
The scent of blood was thick in the air.
But it wasn’t the blood of an honest kill to keep a starving pack’s generations thriving.
It was the smell of a gunshot wound made at distance by cowardice, painfully festering.
Normally, she respected other predators, but those who hurt her had to be stopped.
Her wound kept seaping – wouldn’t heal with bullet still imbedded deep into flesh.
Metal poisoning was invading her system, forcing attention to keep fighting madness.
She knew who they were now, and knew how they could also be hunted – destroyed.
Her life and pack’s survival now at risk, her snarl grinned anticipating their fragile skin.
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