I must attend to my baseline needs as seems most important according to my own values so that advancement makes sense to me.
Month: June 2024
What If?
What if the “powers that be” only resorted to violence as a last resort to help restore peace, rather than murdering, raping, and plundering in the name of narcistic greed?
Humanity’s Demise
We are haunted and terrorized by memory’s specters reinforced by current day idiots who propagate violence.
The Nebula
Assumed dark matter
Of impenetrable night,
The secret source of love
Guarding salvation”s light.
How’s Your Week Going?
My Dog Out Of The Pool
(Hanging On – Bob Moses)
Silken Wind Hounds
“Reaching For The Light”
Traumatic Violence
A human Elden noted the other day – which I myself have observed aplenty – that my life patterns keep getting conscripted into this negative cycle of human experience.
I would like to step off from and leave this track behind me.
May it decay into inert elements, reclaimed by the Earth’s natural environment, where things such as iron in rust can serve better as soil nutrients.
Self Blame To Fame
She had wondered why therapies had never gotten to the source of her torment – why they never did more than to simply illuminate truths she had already known, and yet her suffering was still ever present.
There is often an automatic default misperception in “victims” that somehow they may have caused abuse inflicted upon them – as if they’d had a choice somehow and by being present in that moment of the event(s) had given their consent.
Yet, why could she never absolve herself of this in some form of self forgiveness?
Wherin anchored her imbedded, ruthlessly gripping sense of irrefutable accountability?
Was it because she had chosen to come to this plane, and as horrors inflicted upon her she could hear Elden voices abrading and laughing – because she had, indeed, chosen to be here in this time?
But she had never claimed that Mankind could not be worse than the most vicious of maddened animals.
She had claimed that Good could, would, and wanted to emerge in this species despite pressures – not realizing that she, herself, must apparently become the example!
Word Of The Day: Rish
Brave & dominant ruler, Sage, Saint, One who meditates on Lord’s Name, Seeker of enlightment.
The Queen’s Gambit
The Eliterish had ridiculed her faith in humanity and disparaged her learned assertions to where the only way that she could prove clemency needed on Man’s behalf was to cast off her powers and become one of his children.
But in becoming human, her Elden memories became suppressed, and what accompanied her in youth’s vulnerability were nightmares of humanity’s attrocious deeds imbedded in the genetic code of her now transformed DNA, whispering and weeping to her subconscious at night when she fitfully tried to sleep.
And Man’s twisted, tormented half-lifers were drawn to her – darkness exposed that attacked her innocence and tried to pass on its infection, so that as she grew, she suffered from confusion’s misdirection while struggling to regain access to Truth’s enduring instinct.
Sage human Ascensionists saw her light and attempted to conscript by pursuasions, but she veered away from their illuminations seeking to harness and repurpose her intentions.
She knew she was not one of them, for though she could speak their language fluently, they could not return in kind.
She was here for a specific mission and could not risk misguided temptations.
Word Of The Day: Urdu
noun
- an Indic language closely related to Hindi but written in the Persian script and having many loanwords from Persian and Arabic. It is the official language of Pakistan, and is also widely used in India and elsewhere.”she posted statements in Hindi, English, and Urdu announcing her decision”
adjective
- relating to Urdu.”it is not just a bookshop but an institution where one got to meet noted writers and lovers of Urdu literature”
Oxford Languages
(Welcome To The Boomtown – David & David)
Broken Pieces
Sometimes people discredit and defame others’ validity in order to avoid their own accountability.
Zones Of Interference
She had experienced way too many moments where love had began to blossom – but then was cut off.
Be Proud
Be Proud!
Priming
I am trying to upgrade the quality of my life’s experience.
Dear Alex,
Mayhap I was to be a bridge to help you, and you were to be this for me.
Seen as far off horizon bright stars shining, offering encouragement, perspective, and mirroring for self reflections.
“Going Up!”
Portland, Oregon
(Location – Khalid)
Get Off My Lawn
I’m just done.
Done with being josstled.
Done with being pushed around.
Done with beung mistrusted and projected upon.
Society can have it – because I sure as heck don’t need it!
Faded Memory
There had been a time when she had had buffered layers – whether by youth’s inexperience, well-disguised denial, or remnants if innocent faith still pouring from an ever-flowing well, open to possibilities.
Open Hands
Why do I reach before
Something is yet there?
(Leave A Light On/Talk Away The Dark – Papa Roach)
Angst
At this point, I have no idea what I will do for work – or even how I can return to work!
Going To Extremes
It doesn’t matter, this rage-filled reaction to perceived injustice at being misidentified and mistreated, influenced by a migraine which is branching from post-accident injuries torsion-imbedding into on-fire synaptic references pinging unremittently inside my spinal cord, thoracic to cervical.
Family
My ideal model in-process is one where we lift each other up, encourage individual and collective positive growth and expansion, and no longer ascribe to old paradigms taught to us that insisted we must hold each other down to gain “control’s” advantages.
(Trembling Hands – The Temper Trap)
Daring To Try Again
My kids are growing up, and I am beginning to reach for my own needs, again.
Normifying
“Radical Acceptance?”
“Sanctuary”
A Calming Walk
Another Door
When younger, it is easier to believe in others because one still has not lived so much life as to give up faith in goodness.
That is, if one is very determined.
However, if too much pain over time compounds, inclination to deflect intimacy might increase to keep reason and order sound.
It Seems Crazy
That one rear-ending with precise element factors could cause so much internal damage.
Divergence
It’s not enough to float at rest and just rely upon the tides.
I must learn to sail by my own hands, as if I were the wind’s bride.
When You Think You’re Done Healing…
(Wild Type – Limi, 7 Clouds Release)
“Sa-weet!”
“Vibrance”
“Spectral”
(Gratitude – Brandon Lake)
Vision Chaser
I would clamber onto a car or hike quickly up a hill to gain the widest capture of a visual thrill.
(When The End Comes – Andrew Belle)
Dear Alex,
It’s clear that I have capabilities.
Maybe if I were willing to focus upon only one pursuit, I could gain skills that would seem irrefutable – no matter what external factors throw at me.
But I cannot help it.
I want to embrace so many things!
(Unfocus Your Eyes – Kyle Andrews)
Just Buy Another Pair!
I am now wearing reading glasses that have a wad of black tape for resting upon the bridge of my nose to compensate for the rubber pad having popped off from them.
(All That Really Matters – Illenium & Teddy Swims)
Gardening
“All you need is gloves…gloves, gloves, gloves – all you need are gloves.”
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