Month: December 2024
For Her
This was an old ache, not something just waking up and craving – so she had very little patience nor tolerance to give again for another man’s slow-moving growth response.
Real Love
She needed a man that she could lean on in troubled times, for she would uplift him, naturally and instinctively, as he needed.
Anger
Boiling over at the unequal returns, yet expectations that she continue to provide.
End Of The Line
She was raised that we survive by partnership and flourish by mutuality.
But having not experienced this in a relationship, maybe it was best to stay distant – and not care to try, anymore.
Re: Others’ Irrational Expectations
“I’ve got a torn hip, a torn shoulder, neck and spinal injuries – as well as a TBI.
Kind of limits my options and performance capabilities, people!”
(Right Here, Right Now – Fat Boy Slim)
Even Stevens
I need to back off from people who do not give equally to me.
Unicorns
A male friend told her that her right match wouldn’t be found on the dating sites, but in a coffee shop reading, or some other unique path location/pursuit – which lessened the odds in her mind of their ever meeting.
Emotionally-Unavailable Men
She’d been stuck on this track for way too long – in fact, for her entire lifetime so far.
Polar Bear Mom And Penguin
(I Need A Lover – Pat Benatar)
Silence
Can damage relationships.
Mr. Right Now
“The concept had never occurred to me to partake of this plan of action, yet all signs point to ‘yes, that is what’s happening…’
Why do guys want to put their selves in this position?”
“King ‘Shroom”
“Among The Leaves”
“Winter’s Horizon”
Overcoming
I don’t fit into any molds, so I will keep striving onward.
5:55pm
Number 555, symbolises spiritual guidance and learning. It is associated with transition, freedom and independence. It helps you foresee and manifest your ideal life with singularly motivated actions.
Human Touch (Song Response)
The-way-we build up high
With-out an-y touch
And-then-we crash back down
At-the-end of-the-rush
When-I look at you
I-see parts of-me
Once caught in-a-cage
Being giv-en re-lease
You-are
A gui-ding mir-ror
I-see
My-path de-li-vered
When-the eve-ning comes
Af-ter a-long day
And-the morn-ing dawn
When-it-all fades a-way
Your-voice it-gets in-side
Lifts-my wings in-a-rush
I ne-ver knew it-was-right
That-I-could feel soo-much!
And-when-the dark thoughts hit
And-I’ve run-out-of-time
I-turn-the light screen on
Op-en up my-mind
I-search-your voice for hope
Then-I find a-trace
Heav-en opens its-doors
My-life is gi-ven grace
Your-heart’s
Be-com-ing clear-er
Your-soul
Is cleans-ing pure
And-where I strug-gle
To be-lieve in-my-self
That-wall re-solves as if
It-were made of-silk
And-I-can see the path
Now draw-ing near
You-light-the way for-me
And-chase a-way all-the-fear
So-when-you doubt your self
Like-I of-ten do
And-see that bro-ken mirror
Star-ing back at-you
Just-take-a look in-side
And-you’ll see me-there
We-share-a love that-is-wild
Made-of myst-i-cal-air
You-are
A won-drous sing-er
In-spired
My-heart will shim-mer
(Thank you for all that you do, Alexander!)
(Posted on his “Broken Mirror,” Hotel Room Session #24 comments)
(Love Walks In – Van Halen)
Legend
That it’s possible for love to travel on its own, seeking to find and claim you.
Words of The Day
Popliteal fossa.
And “F***s” Were Given
Something is kicking in to repair my throat – thank f***!
Insomnia
For unknown reasons.
(Broken Mirror – Elderbrook Hotel Room Session #24)
The Hidden Latch
Locks down as if there never was a key – nor ever will be – toward supporting my creativity flourishing.
Slipping Slope
Another E.R. vet visit for our beloved Blue Ranger, resulting in postponement of my business meeting to strategize income generation, and now Queen Z is not eating…
*soul sobs*
Explosive Downturn
My Queen Z’s respiratory infection took over again, causing chest rattling and excess mucus clogging of her sinus breathing; our Blue Ranger’s teeth suddenly absessed into amounts of blood and oozing puss as an extreme dental emergency with possible respiratory infection; and I am sick again while managing and trying to regrow past and create a new business
(Golden – Harry Styles)
From The Ground Up
Falling down flat, and then reassessing for better approaches.
Well, Then…
As my life is full of disruption, I better start capturing at least raw elements of my vocal range capabilities.
Whenever I have sought to further develop them by lessons, instructors have not taken me serioisly, nor cared enough to truly “see” me.
(Schism – Tool)
Alterior Motives
While she knew that her wisdom heralded the imminent revolution, she also knew that if she joined the movement, she would be crucified as a martyr and branded as nothing more than a whore and liar.
What We Need
“Some people say that if a woman has sex with a man before he is committed to her, then this diminishes her value.
This type of thinking pushes a woman to deeply evaluate her own feelings where a man is not also doing the work, and commit to marriage before knowing compatibility.”
Outer Limits
She figured that most peop)e
Craved fitting in’s acceptance,
But what she needed was support
While she challenged restrictions.
Great Achievements
It was easy to look around at other people
And marvel at how they had accomplished
The standard rote progression in careers
That led to their current succesful status
And to self disparage with chastisement
When comparing one’s innovative debris
Left in piles still needing categoric cleanup
After rockets have escaped gravy’s gripping
Callibrating propulsion to greater distances
Where most aim for thevmoon’s reliability.
A Different Approach
With a wolf, you have to ask
Its about their independence
With a hound, its all about connection
They’re wide open and love interacting
(Gish – Lidian – Full Album)
Clan Of Silence
(We are very good at masking for our children)
Some Great Reward
She was sick, sleep deprived, and beyond exhausted – thus, fell to the floor.
(Title ref to Depeche Mode song)
“Check, Please”
It had made sence to keep going for them, but she was depleted with very little left for herself.
(Title play with words)
(Heaven Knows – Kaskade)
The deeper tones remind me of “555” by Jimmie Eat World – so an upper elevation from, yet still connected thematic, perhaps.
Common Place
Where we meet to exchange time and energy.
(Title play with words)
Money, Fame, And Comfort
A Time For Everything
(Roll Me Away – Bob Seger)
Mobilizing
Trying to activate and propel forward.
“Do You Want To Be” (Bad For Me – CID ft. Sizzy Rocket)
Collaboration
Can be a real fine thing…
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