“Being “cut off” for honestly calling him on his bs and asking for better terms is unfair.
I should be rewarded – not punished – for my good values, solid integrity, and excellent emotional intelligence!”
Month: February 2025
“When The Book Says…”
(Complete Mess – 5 Seconds Of Summer)
The Curse
“To ever walk in the shadow of Man’s ignorance.”
In A State Of Lockdown
“In order to endure great hardships, it’s as if a sheet of metal forms in front of one’s heart and chest, prohibiting the host breathing in to receive life’s well-earned and much-deserved restorative abundance.”
A Life’s Purpose
“I’ve always thought that mine was to champion and propagate Love – but God I hate being only a vessel!”
A Woman’s Plight
“As I lay here in bed, thickly sick from either contraceptive hormones or a new pregancy, I realize that I have still not cracked the code to my own enchainment.”
“Hello”
“Making Friends”
Male Tendencies
“I am a real woman dealing with real life challenges – not some throw away toy available for discarding!”
It Wasn’t Funny
Being in the trailer in the low mountains, having to live as if we were homesteaders.
The “Wicked Witch”
A cunning and powerful internal defense mechanism that waited to take over after the maiden inside gave up on being able to fight for good due to longterm efforts’ exhaustion.
Upgraded “Word” Doc Programs
“Why would you fecking hide the ‘zoom’ button?!”
Consequential Limits
“If you want to f*** around, this is where I’m standin’!”
(There’s Only You – Above And Beyond ft. Zoe Johnston A&B Club Mix
Un-Related
It does not seem right that after advocating for and well-launching my family that my reward should be loneliness and injury.
(Title play on words)
(Catching Flies – Komorebi)
Beneath The Mask
Keep quiet, shhhh
For he doesn’t care
To know what heals
And soothes the soul
Otherwise he would
Be there when needed
How to switch tracks
Is where to focus upon
Rather than begging for
Empathy from a stranger
(Howl – Chill Mix – Elderbrook)
Sabotage
A non-cooperative partner can too easily destroy the structure of home and family.
Hope
I used to believe, but now it’s just about being relentless against resistance, even if it enforces stopping points.
New Demons
Fighting to overcome injuries is proving to be a new challenge – but I still plan to win, hedging against inevitabilities.
Compliments Of The House
Flexibility
Autonomy
Comfort
For Next Halloween
Gratitude
“It greatly irks me that I ‘should’ be grateful that I can at least now fumble to complete tasks, when others have lost even more capabilities.”
Identity
“Sometimes I feel depressed because there are so many great artists out there doing some version of what I long to be.
And I keep being held back from pursuing my personal self expressioning.
But I need to remind nyself that the work I will create will uniquely represent me.”
Like I’m Crazy
MRI’s
The relative direness of recent findings feels daunting.
(From The Beginning – Emerson, Lake, and Palmer)
How Deep Is Your Love?
It Might Not Be Sexxy
To speak about the levels of abuse one has experienced – but it is real.
And what is attractive is a person’s fighting to overcome such circumstances to ensure their war is better won.
Night Moves
We talk about the rush
But not about the drop
That comes afterwards
When the bed is empty
And the smell of sweet
Connection’s memories
Linger as the body still
Thrums from sensations
Yet there’s no one there
For bonding aftercare.
(Never Over – Elderbrook)
Awarded By The Order Of “Super Cheese!”
Age-Schism
“Proven wisdom requires more respect than youthful folly is now being given.”
An Underlying Question
“How can you even attempt to compare a younger woman’s potential capabilies to a more mature woman’s hard-earned and proven accomplishments?”
Laughter
There is nothing like the sweet release of laughter with a gentle poke at too-stiff reverie.
(With respect, of course!)
Psalm 133
“Behold, how good and how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity”.
The Woodsman
There was a rare knock upon the door, and upon opening it, she found a younger man standing there with a question of desire’s expectation in his eyes.
“What…? So you think you’ll find something that you want in here?”
And she drew the door wide to let him in as they were accompanied by both of their playful laughter.
Unfettered
“There’s a reason that women whose children have grown and men have left retreat to live alone in the woods.”
Warbling Creatures
“What if I were to tell you that underneath this formidable facade of a hardened, battle-weary woman resides a spritely child as of fairy legends who loves singing with the strange languages of birds – and even at times howling like a playful wolf cub and screeching like an impish dragon screeling?”
Even So
A woman must at times set aside her armor and seek comfort in another’s arms next to the fire.
Ezekiel 18:19-23
“The son will not bear the punishment for the sin of the father, nor will the father bear the punishment for the sin of the son; the righteousness of the righteous shall be on himself, and the wickedness of the wicked shall be on himself.”
Bathsheeba
“How they cursed and despised me for being strong and valiant upon the fields of conflict – more capable in fighting for Truth than any man yet encountered, even while still providing succor to my children.
Who else but a mother would figure out cunningly how to win most directly and effectively in life’s tumultuous battles?
For her offspring are precious and few, and there are no riches, land, nor crown that can compare to the prize of their protecting.”
Belief
Words can move mountains
Faith can part seas
(Metaphoric intentions regarding perceived limitations and powerful emotions)
Melatonin
Gummies infused with chamomile and passion flower are my insomnia diversion.
Just Get Out
That’s what outsiders would say, unaffected by situation, process, and resultant outcome.
Abandonment
“I had needed his loving, doting attention and snuggling affection, but he had ignored me for so long that I began reacting as if I were an emotionally-starving banshee.”
(Dear Prudence – The Beatles)
Originally posted August 2023, pre-accident.
Fifty-Me
Still young and naive.
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