Still bound too tightly as
Awaiting metamorphosis
Month: February 2025
(Moments – Elderbrook)
Dear Alex,
Today is my birthday.
Poised upon the shore’s edge, I can peer into the deeper waters fairly easy, being so close to cusped Pisces.
Maybe it was my cat of the same name that taught me by her nurturing through harsh childhood loneliness how to be softer than most other Aquarians in life encountered.
In fact, it seems that many are missing the meaning of why they are here as they tout their designated sun signs as boastful power entitlements.
Are all of these closed minds just suddenly going to open up, become enlightened, and help assist transformation in our world?
Meanwhile, I am grateful for your positive influences.
4AM
Why the darn it (!)
Am I wide awake?
Oh…
Perhaps all drowsy
Has fled the body
As compressing
The impact zone
Hoping to release
Torsion tension
Deep Internal
The wound
Isn’t shallow
In fact, it is
Deeply buried
In the stillness
Like a gravity well
Pulling inward when
Reaching forward
To tug backward
As if anchored
By a taught band
Barely yielding
I Don’t Know…What To Think…About This…
Home Base
How do I rebuild my resources to hold and maintain it?
(My House – Elderbrook)
Dormancy
As winter’s shroud
Settles over dreams
Blanketing them
With thick opacity
Roots germinate,
Forming purchase
To burst into light
Spring’s tendrils.
Neutrality
Perhaps not everything needs to mean something…
(It’s Your Turn – Blume)
Saying Goodbye
If some memories from the past are really not that good, maybe there is no longer any reason to keep remembering them.
(Animal Lithographs – Sim Nagai)
Some Days Be Like…
“Hound’s Paw Of Approval”
Southworth Brothers Ranch Receives National Range Management Award
Phrase Of The Day: Adaptive Resilience
Adaptive resilience is the ability to recover from adversity, adapt and thrive. It builds the capacity to be productive, resourceful, and creative while dealing with changing circumstances or adversity.
(Falling – Harry Styles)
Music
How do I break through to the me that’s burried underneath all of this, suffocating?
(On Your Own – Hayden James & Cassian ft. Elderbrook)
A Waste Of One’s Time
People who lie, cheat, and manipulate.
(Dreaming – BT)
Someone To Love
Coneection that bridges space and time.
(Dance To The Music – Sly And The Family Stone)
I Don’t Understand
“How can artists just be their creative selves around other people?”
Transformation
Digging deep
Into mystery
Sifting sands’
Hidden gems
As what was
Evolves into
Something
Even better
Than desires
Could aapire.
(How Do You – Elderbrook)
“I Want You”
“Only”
(Dance With My Ghost – Camelphat ft. Elderbrook)
“Healing Palm And Alligator / Phoenix”
“Snake In The Grass”
Earnest Hemingway
“The hardest lesson I have had to learn as an adult is the relentless need to keep going, no matter how broken I feel inside.”
Calling Water
I am finding that my therapeutic cabilities are expanding further into the field of the b9dy’s hydraulic system restoration.
(Clouds – Slayyyter)
Break-Through
Using my developed therapy techniques to remobilize adhesed tissues at the gym left over from the car impact that are still inhibiting my ability to move fluidly
(Mambo Trombo – Chuy Reyes & His Orchestra)
Madness
A society that contributes to devaluing morality.
(God Only Knows – for King & Country)
Lost In The Silence
Feeling passion, without answer.
(How Long / Betvha Got A Chick On The Side – The Pointer Sisters)
One bad a** song!
Players
Tell you want you want to hear to further their agenda.
Stay Sensitive
Courtship
On the brink of being a lost art.
Easy Love
Why is it so prevalent?
(Talk To You – Daughter Of Swords)
Word Of The Day: Vox
Popular sentiment or opinion : the voice of the people · voice calling in the wilderness : a wise person whose counsel or warnings are ignored.
Merriam-Webster Dictionary
(Fighting For Me – Riley Clemmons)
They Weren’t Expendable
Many people say to let the animals roam freely outside, and if they get injured or killed, so be it.
But we came to know, love, and protect our beloveds, and valued their happy well being.
Dear Alex,
I keep the household going by the frizzled fumes of my exhausted, yet valiant efforts.
The resources that I have been depending upon are dwindling too rapidly, and I am worried while working to regain business income before these gap fillers run out.
And our new tiger is, of course, a handful, with a loud, strong yowl that keeps going whenever he doesn’t get what he wants.
While his addition to our family has been a type of stabilizing blessing, the frequent mind and emotional pinging has been breaking down my nerves on a daily basis.
Maybe the load is exacerbated by my also having to manage the pack’s dynamics as I work to safely acclimatize them to each other, as well as pressured struggling to save our beloved ranger.
I almost had to make “the call” to let her go this week, but then by a miracle of inspiration tested her desire to eat by syringe feeding.
Fortunately, she has been ravenously responsive, and I am hoping that she’ll regain weight by my frequent hand-feeding her as I encourage, snuggle, and praise her.
It is frightening to have almost missed this opportunity to help prolong her life when she very much wants to keep living.
She has several medical complications that we are treating, so it has been difficult to figure out what care has still been missing.
Meanwhile, our hound’s opportunistic love of food and big-hearted caring has resulted in her generously grooming our ranger after each feeding, which they both enjoy as they warm up by the fire and I fret about possible roughness vs. fragility.
And, as I had hoped that the hound and tiger would get along together, it is a huge win that they tease and play with each other rambunctiously.
However, all of this is being a lot to supervise.
The wolf sides with me regarding the overwhelm, giving an occasional warning growl or bark at times because the tiger loves her fluffy tail and sneaks up on and pounces upon her from many angles in attempts to innovatively engage her.
Wolf is mostly tolerant and supportive by taking part in the social thrum of our new front room dynamics, but she gets a little cranky at times because she is going blind and cannot easily track him.
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