“I guess what ails me is the fact that I’m injured, after having cared for another person with severe injuries that did not resolve positively, and where I did not get back the love, care, and support that I gave.
Reciprocity was lacking, so as a partner relagated to caregiving, my spirit became drained after decades of disregard.
So here I am, with this constant physical load beleageurment now of my own and a past history of needed love’s lack, so where do I find faith in concept that a man would step up for me when I am struggling to meet my own needs?
There’s a correlation conclusion in my reasoning that sucks away at confidence.
If I was not valued in my valiant youth’s high achieving performances before, then why would I be valued when I’m struggling?
And taking it further, would I still be valued if/as I moved into better recovery and claimed a new version of my prior bright energies’ emitting?
I feel at risk for being loved only for my current diminishment.”
Candid Corvid Productions 