As she observed him
From safe distance
Ancestral memories
Illuminated evidence
Change as irreversible
Once man succumbed
She now witnessed a
Legend embracing sun
As she observed him
From safe distance
Ancestral memories
Illuminated evidence
Change as irreversible
Once man succumbed
She now witnessed a
Legend embracing sun
She hadn’t had
A worthy male
In her territory
And was both
Excited and
Reserved
For they were
Rumored rare
To still exist
And he was
A proven
Warrior
With an
Intoxicating
Kiss
Time delves
Into fathoms
What will bring
True love to me?
Growing up in a land of humans, she was expected to only associate with their males, with regards to future partnership.
She was told that what she instinctively longed for in pair bonding was only fantasy, and that she, herself, was just an odd human.
But the boys always picked on her or hurt her, and they seemed to not become real men.
She dreamed of being able to help her father who had been banished to a far off land, left to dwell in isolation while being slowly covered by his own ash.
She had come across a piece of art hidden on a wall in a secret corridor that she had found when she was a very young child, and had been told to tell no one about it.
She had wondered if this was because the adults present at the time would have gotten into trouble for exposing her to a version of erotica.
But she had thought that the large painting was very beautiful, and had been fascinated by the intricate details of the man’s facial expression showing his inner conflict and deep love for the woman he was carrying.
She knew that she should be alarmed by the portrayal of blood dripping from his fanged mouth – and the matching bite on the sleeping woman’s neck – but to her, their union seemed to be an amazing love story.
Not much had been known about the goddess, except of her caring for humanity
Generations of women and children had been slaughtered, simply because they had come to know the healing ways of nature.
As light becomes dark, dark becomes light.
She began to realize that there was some power in being seen as a tasty snack.
Mixed blood between the dark and light had always proven to become formidable.
“How else could she have survived despite men tearing at and attempting to stab her heart?”
Repost from June 29, 2023
Her mother had had an issue when she was younger that made her need to take on the biggest, baddest men in hoping to find her warrior.
Hells Angels, demon worshippers – she didn’t care.
She wanted someone who could handle the untamed passion barely contained within her.
And that inherited hunger had been intentionally sequestered and suppressed by her daughter in her own self – because she had refused to cause harm to others.
But now she had a reason to, if necessary.
For she had at last found her own Prophecy.
“Do you think that we could build it between us?”
HOT FLAAASSSHHHH!!!
Givin’ us the eye…!
“When you’re attempting to move mountains, you’re going to fall into more valleys.”
(Regarding further financial destabilization)
Across the seas of
Embittered misery
She found the man
Who’d take a stand
With eyes churning
Deep blue memories
And as took his hand
Remembered history
“I am so glad to be able to write to you here because it filters out the intensity of the emotions I’m feeling – and I hope allows you to see me more clearly without overstimming you in the process.
I have been around a lot of wonderful, yet autistic people who inadvertently have given me a complex due to their oversensitivies.
And I was told while growing up that I was the one who was sensitive!”
“What is your ideal of a bonded pair?
How could we act?
What could we share?”
Darn it!
I don’t understand these delays – and why is time both pressuring and preventing me in progessing?
It’s like I live a year in a day – but not much around me is changing, not getting accomplished – and I need time to slow down, but can’t afford it to.
Or maybe, I am just frantically spinning my wheels like a mouse on a track set, in a room surrounded by a field of stasis.
Meanwhile, I can see I’m not getting any younger by the strain from the injuries.
If I weren’t struggling so hard to recover, I’d probably be weathering better.
And what’s so important about “right timing,” anyway?
And why does my own mind get all tangled up in overcompensating – still thinking I must manage everything?
Again, it is said that a woman moves into her masculine energy when fighting for survival.
I just want to scream into the void for you to “Come save me, already!”
Lol.
But then I worry that I would likely push you aside to get you out of the way so that I could stumble and flail wildly at the next demons approaching – so used to battling on my own, that I feel crazed and hazey.
Maybe its the injuries, but circumstances sure keep fecking mobbing!
And I am so tired of always fighting.
Yet, I no longer feel able to live any other way – even though memories of what partnership is meant to be still haunt me.
And I am having difficulty identifying with what remains of myself.
I am just trying to at least keep holding solid ground while encountering massive slippage.
What good can I initially be for you when you arrive?
Unless you plan on us sleeping entwined, nourishing each other for the next century so that we can both recover and reclaim our vitality.
Sounds perfect to me, actually.
Although I know reality needs attending.
Maybe we could find a middle ground while being mutually endulging?”
How do I beat the odds against time and effiort managing injury’s divestiture??
—-
(Reposted now from April 2024 by decree of WordPress after amending, as I am in a bind again)
“I had not intended to repost prior vampiric themed writings, but when I was searching them for fun and fixed some spelling, WordPress uploaded one as new (rather than reloading it where I’d left it), so I reposted another to go along with it.”
When she closed her eyes, trying to nap, her mind cast out for traces of his energy signature – as if tracking him.
She couldn’t stop the hunger, for she had been starving for so long and needed to feed.
And he had cracked open the Pandora’s box that she had fought hard to keep locked up inside of her.
—-
Originally published October 2024
There was the master who got the prized human female after biting the human suitor – and then shoving him into a submersive water closet where the couple could then observe him as he became a scholar to combat the torment of denied feeding.
The female had been fond of this one before the master changed her, so the master did not destroy the lesser, but the scholar was forced to endure proof of the two’s bonded lovemaking so it would never cross his mind to try to steal her because of painful exposure.
The maverick was also initially drawn to the female’s kind demeanor – but then veered off, mistrusting his attraction, and was later attacked by a more sinister hunting beast.
Details before unmentioned are the terror of the first being mauled by the master when discovering the master’s dying mother in his bed – and a background of megalomania set upon acquiring the female without consent.
Having watched the master ravish the female while hearing her conversion craving it as they violently lusted next to shriveled-husk human remains caused madness in the starving scholar’s brain.
Bevause a beast turned him, Maverick’s passions ran hotter and more feral – which drove him into violent underground feeding by guerrilla excursions to purge his rage-filled, ravenous frustrations.
However, once he and his female sergeant learned that their team was hired to plant bombs under an orphanage, they decided to instead begin hunting the puppet masters.
(In a complex dream)
—–
Originally posted in October 2024
Used to mean being
Eaten from the inside
Rather than
The outside
And was
Destruction
Rather than
Protection
So powerful
It can cure and
Guard against
Nearly any ill
If gifted by
One’s lover
His injury
Took him
Forever
From me
He turned
Away from us
Here is where
I could scream
There was
No more trust
Not my
Fault
I didn’t
Cause it
So close we
Could touch
But forever
Separate
I had
No choice
Slow death
Of my heart
Oh to be
Held again
To be loved
And wanted
To be missed
If I even shift
Back pets and
Warm sunsets
Moon rises
Arcing falling
And the world
Forgetting
Because we are
Nowhere to be seen
“It’s not about being perfect.
It’s about just doin’ it.
In time and with practice, I’ll improve.”
(Regarding artistic attempts)
By Athena Stairs, Approximately 2:40AM, May 15, 2025 (Because Time Matters :D)
This is my original. A first raw on-the-fly with fans on to induce my “wild magic” into feeling safe to come out to play. Volume gets greater, so protect your ears. Please contact me for permissions. Just getting myself to show up and start developing my vocal range capacities.
This one’s for you, my love, wherever you are.
“Harmonizing today, I did not erase it in an anxiety-crash reflex like the first attempt.
But, luckily, SoundCloud cited a copyright issue and stopped uploading.
That’s ok, though, because I realized after this that my having succeeded could have caused me other issues.
I am not sure now how to proceed, when I am inspired by others’ music.
Would it be enough to record my voice alone, yet by my listening to the music non-captured through headphones?
I’d want to give the artist(s) credit, though, which might still prevent uploading.
Yeah…my newby-isms are showing.”
“Our wolf is going blind so rapidly, it hurts to see her afraid and startling at things.”
“Escapism might be an only way to keep surviving.”
“Who needs drugs when you can just see the humor in trauma – and laugh with the insanity loudly, right into the face of the maw?”
(Albeit it takes practice ;D)
(Ok, “laughing so hard, I’m dyin’)
(Where’s the “laughing so hard I’m crying” emoji here in WordPress?!)
YAAS!
(Waving 70’s-born tenacious fist in the air.)