Summer 2016

I was breaking away for the first time
Staying often alone at parents’ house

Carefully opening wings in heat of sun
Wheelbarrow-spreading their shavings

I loved the feel of simple manual labor
Muscles flexing while tied with nature

In the evening I dyed my hair black
Put on makeup and went dancing

At Goth night after driving to S.F.
Along 280 scenic contrasting 101

I always loved going into The City
Lured by the underground hidden

Had my first and only meetup event
Proud of such brave disappointment

I was trying to break new ground to
Become something freshly different

Met my ex-fiance online during
Later strove to create our future

Sometimes it’s like I’m just spinning circles
All that time and effort looping atonement