Month: July 2025
“Seduction”
“Solar Landing”
“Ancient”
“Gift Of Fire”
Stayin’ Alive Mashup
(Blue Sky Rainbow – Brian Crain)
(Old Friend – Robin Schulz ft. CLOVES)
Butterfly Raised By Ants
(Neverender – Justice ft. Tame Impala)
Self Acceptance
“What’s that, again?”
(Tunnel Of Love – Bruce Springstein)
Placard
Angst
Overworking Adrenals
“Like bleeding out energetically without needed stop-gap filler to meet, feed, and reset their function.”
Dietary Advice
“I will be speaking soon with a specialist to see what I can supplement my diet with, though I do not expect to make major changes at this point of restabilizing.”
Turning Tides
What would it be like for us
To know trust without doubt
Would our limbic systems reset
No longer in a panic syndrome?
Chemicals saturating cut like heroine
Filling veins brimming in peace again
Darling – no fear nor shame needed
Where we’re bound for as we aspire
But we must help each other unlearn
What suppression has deep-enmired
Earth Vibes
While the family would arise
Deft and nimbly assembling,
She would continue to rest as
Cells gathered reinforcements
“Amber Moth”
Concentration
Dear Alex,
“And we go beyond the farthest reaches
Where the light bends and wraps beneath us…”
—-
(Sleep Token lyrics)
“Perspective”
“Promising”
With Billie Eilish “Hotline” music clip.
“Shadow & Light”
Family Reunion
Though there was daily chaos
It was the kind that resets bio
Rhythms that reassure system
Life promises its beneficience
(Breathe – CamelPhat, Dark Matter Edit)
Countoured Strength
“It is satisfying to feel my muscle strength and form returning along lines that I’ve been re-conjuring.”
(Nobody – Gorgon City)
Damocles – Sleep Token Clip, Rock Im Park)
Spinal Cord Injury
“There’s been no denying, just realigning.”
Denial’s Benefits
These first two years since the accident
Have been about gaining distance away
From modes of tipping on edge of collapse
Which I would not let override endurance
Thus internal reroutings smack into walls
When continuing to push past allowances
With mainframe crashings from pressure
As keep reanimating limbs toward future
Mystery Rupture
Something unmentioned has been
A bulging vessel inner pinky finger
Several weeks ago since I noticed
Unsure how long it’s been injured
Could have happened lifting any
Edge with angled weight cutting
I’ve been ignoring it to let heal as
Occasionally acts as trigger finger
Because the pain upon touching
Was swollen and pulse-alarming
Connective tissues and associated
Don’t have tensile tenacity as prior
(All I Want Is You – U2)
“Feminine Design”
“Gray Matter”
Missed Opportunities
“It is vexing, but necessary, to let go of some further trainings that I thought I’d be doing.”
Toe Check
“Well…
It is pink and healthy, with no grit – except for the remnant shriveling skin hanging like a determined yet crumpled flag doing its best to still protect freshly exposed layers of nerve endings.
Thus, why the sharp, intense pain makes me want to keen to high heaven when the end of it is accidentally bumped straight on.”
(Delight – Leo Faulkner)
Dear Friend,
“Could you love me in my haggard, hollowed state?
What if this is as good as it’ll ever get for me again?
Although there is much else that I could give you.
I just can’t keep being a work horse.”
Apparently,
“The few things that I choose to try to do on any given day are more than I ought to be attempting.
But I used to be able to do so much more!”
DAW
“Maybe this can be my entry point, building upon prior experiences.”
Still Frozen
I guess I’ve been in denial
Piano strains my brainwaves
While guitar is neuro-untenable
I just keep thinking if I believe…
Frustration
“Because I need more help to overcome all of this.”
Be The Bad-A*** You’re Meant To Be
(In My Arms – Illenium, KREAM Remix)
(Mess It Up – Jerro & The Kite String Tangle)
Small Stepping
There are exercises and nutrients that
With time and resources could benefit
But if I have just one unit for any effort
I must be careful as to where focusing
Down Time
I got hurt again yesterday early eve
Simply walking and snagging shoe
Tripped carriage flinging extremes
Tore into junctures where repairing
Darling,
I am a mess
I must confess
But you know me
Better than this
(You & Me – Disclosure ft. Eliza Doolittle, Riva Remix)
Higher Realms
Air needs earth’s defining
Earth needs air to breathe
Breathe me in
Transforming
Let me feel how your
Contours curve uneven
As I rest upon
Primal potential
No longer wastelands
Crying tears to revive
As rain sprouts
Dreaming seeds
Bringing forth a
Promised haven
We both remember
And were cast from
Claiming
Together
Reward’s
Paradise
—
(Content of multiple meanings)
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