Dismantling Constructs

The dreams were full of scenarios, including betrayal of trust and rejection, as well as examining belonging and reclaiming one’s sense of self.

In one, she was suddenly being kicked out from a home where she’d been allowed access to a bed and bathroom – but still took a stand on her own behalf as she left, citing the original contract agreement to protect herself.

In another scenario, she was surprised when one of the crew members leaned toward her from the side, silently offering his comfort’s warm shelter for her to absorb, which broke the cold, catatonic shock she fell into when her ex (turned narcisist) appeared across from them, haughtily righteous in his self assertions.

Next, she was on a central street island in some downtown, leaning back on the ground and taking in happenings around her while people watching – but decided that she wasn’t going to be a street gypsy successfully living on the fringe as her life pattern.

And in the fourth, she confronted her ex’s free-loading absence of providing rent while he used drugs and engaged with other women – as she struggled against strong emotions pushing her into hysteria and gave him final notice to be moved out in two weeks, by August.

This last dream’s timeline synced up with current reality’s timeline – which is interesting in context of evicting love’s prior unsuitable tenants to make room for better future partnership.