Month: July 2025
Transmutation
Music slumbers within me
Awaiting union’s harmony
Crematoria
Why is it so darn hot out there?
At least this year I have the AC!
(Title Riddick movie reference)
Past Work Dream
I had a job under pressure, working my bootie off for so much less money, in a no-win, time-crunch situation.
But though I sweated and the timing was hectic, I could do it if paced myself – and I felt no pain with good muscle coordination.
It was nice in those dream moments to not be injured.
“True Blue”
When You Fall…
Dear Alex,
“Why would you be here for me while I’m dealing with my injuries?
What if I don’t recover?
Do you think I’m worthy?”
(Can’t Stop Lovin’ You – Van Halen)
“Spiral Vortex”
“Congratulations, Sleep Token!”
“From Above”
“Golden Rescue”
Happier after much water!
Merry-Go-Round
Spnning wheels
Over same tracks
Anything accomplished
Is just matter of opinion
Consumerism hunting
For this or that object
In day’s heat because
It is too hot to garden
Or to catch up on dishes
From broken dishwasher
Where ableism assumes
Shoulders have no limits
(Home – Moontricks)
Plucky Hen
As she hefted the onus of recovery
She allowed her mother’s imprint
To settle over her countenance
Warding off weak, angry men
Who would have once
Seen her as desireable
Counter-Man-Ding
Avoiding men her age helped
To subvert ingrained training
By generation undeserving
Propagating violent biases
Which counted against any
Ranking they might’ve had
(Lots Of Drops Of Brandy · The Chieftains)
Terence
“Apparently, my keyboard stand has a name!”
The Wrong Cup
Having just pulled fresh leftovers
Out of fridge, placing onto counter
I soon after reached for and drank a
Warm, bitter-sour days-old belatedly
Realizing discarded cups also there
As hastily followed consuming new
Asking stomach’s grace internally if
We could get away with imposition
Letting remains just pass through
Making nary a wake in trespassing
(Only The Lonely – The Motels)
It’s Like I Told You
“Only the lonrly can play.”
(Motels band song reference)
(Dark Places – Hamper)
Hair
Ponytail
Hasty tie
Rarely down
Dear Alex,
Can we just do
Our own thing?
I’m not really
Interested
In keeping up
With Joneses
Except when
Necessary
“Yuppie”
Gone is the dream:
That young guy and
Cheerleader fantasy
Dear Friend,
I knew you knew
Sensing the taint
It’s why I reached out
With gentle carress
To let you know
I felt your pain
Valid as mine
In owed debt
Deserving
To be paid
Reframed
Pimps
Get you hooked
Then begging
For a taste
N.W. (Song)
(Content warning, not posted, note to self)
(Easier – Msnsionair ft. Shaed)
Reflex-tions
Basically, if I am in a constant
State of life-instability stress,
This will keep triggering lockdown
Preventing me from cracking code
(ATLAS – Mansionair)
Slipping The Leash
We were born to be as one with nature
Yet taught allegience to false masters
Manipulation’s fear by violence
Imprinting lore of false prophets
Whereas it’s even noted in the Quran
That Jesus will come spit upon them
Perspective
“You don’t need a man…you need a champion.”
(Quote from movie: Eat, Pray, Love)
(All I Haven’t Said – 38 Special)
Built For Trust, Not Lust
Woman by self cannot easily service
Whereas Man can any time by hand
This was designed for Man to manage
His vitality – not to seed an entire land
And to remind him of his responsibilities
To one woman as heart and soul provider
Phraseology
I think it’s poignant how in a phrase such as
“There’s only so much that after a lifetime”
Completely understates, yet accurately
Portays how importance is diminished
In what women have been expected
To endure by patient, selfless giving
Until – if we are lucky enough to have –
The false mirror reflecting crack open
Revealing the lies brainwashed into us
Vs .the entirely different state of being
We were always meant to contribute
And get to have as part of our sanity
“Need To Breathe” (Song)
There’s a song on the back burner
Someday I’ll write about treatment
How men think they’re God’s Gift
But have been vacuously selfish
In how they have “given” yet taken
Projecting tepid, brief fantasies as
Using their counterparts shallowly
Leaving them wanting and aching
For true, fulfilling connection agreed
But never f***ing delivered – well let
Me tell you there’s only so much that
A woman can absorb after a lifetime
Of being ignored, hoping for difference
But ever surrounded by lazy ignorance
—
(Note to self, song titled concepts recorded)
The Answer
“I still have not found the key to my learning music.
There’s a gap that nothing yet bridges.
I think, partially, because I avoid being boxed in.”
“If The Shoe Fits…”
Duplicity
A Lover will endure
The worst behaviors
Because they believe
In people’s capabilities
Recognizing that when
Someone behaves badly
This does not necessarily
Define their true essence
Often, unfortunately, to
The Lover’s detriment
(Close Your Eyes – Forester)
To Be Good Enough
“What would it be like to experience this in a partner’s eyes?”
Just Breathe
(Right Now – Fire From The Gods)
Well, My Love
It’s another day
Still so far away
There are tasks I can do
To distract me from you
Which is likely wise to divert
From succumbing to obsesson
Yet, I can’t help but think of you, often
Yearning for when our lives intertwine
Be safe out there
Come home to me
The Project
As she watched the performer rise to cues
Each time more hideously self-indulgently,
She did not care that was the role because
Talent flowed too easily into favorite atiring
And she realized it would do more harm
To herself if she supported the proposal
(During career retraining 2024)
(Verbal – Colinese)
Stale-Mate
“Why won’t you submit,” he asked her tenderly, frustrated that she wouldn’t give into him so easily.
Panting, she replid, “Because I’m waiting for my mate. Only he can purge and banish the demons within me.”
Alignment
I have heard Aquarians and Leo’s
Are supposed to be well-matched
But have yet to experience this
In human-to-human interaction
The Voice
“Focus on The Pleasure…”
She said, ‘ You’re an incubus, aren’t you?”
“Yes, Dearest…” He replied.
“Of course, I Am…”
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