Month: August 2025
Birth Year Woes
“Paladian Showers Infinitum”
“Infinitum”
(Into the Celestia – Silent Velvet, Péter Jakus)
(Where It Leads – Euan Ellis)
Justice
We long for times when
Wrongs are put to rights
Manipulation facing dictates
Of Hell’s wrath no longer late
Either recanting to obtain
Lost innocence reclaimed
Or gathered eaten whole for
Recycling of corrupted souls
(Eastern Love – Ahmet Cegil & HilalDeep)
Reset My Patient Violence
Look To Windward – Sleep Token Clip
Dear Friend,
“Will you halt this eclipse in me?”
—
(Sleep Token reference)
Media Propagation
“It’s been very effective at dividing us from connection to others, parceling us down into vulnerable, independent units in order to direct our funds to their profits’ coffers.”
Shock
“I had known it was ‘bad,’ but they had only found hints of the areas before that they had then waived off as minor, despite my unusually extreme symptoms”
Disorientation
“The pain had increased to such intensity over the past couple of weeks that getting it to finally back down a notch or two has me floating in hazey nerve fry.”
(Truth Begins – Klangkarussell & Blazey)
Wrenched
“I should have waited, knowing the dogs were distracted, but instead I waded right into them at the height of their excited surge-lauching toward the person behind me – and got my leg attachments pulled.
Dazed and confused, I feel insubstantial as the ground shifts ever constantly under me, making it difficult to find and retain my bearings.
(Likely, flip flops don’t help, but the toe needs a little more time)
Good thing I’m an air sign and can dissociate somewhat, othrwise I’m not sure I would have made it this far by endurence.”
(Suddenly · Olivia Newton-John & Cliff Richard, From Xanadu)
A New Phase
“I’d like to say I am ready, but handing over reins to other competant people is not something that I’m used to having the option of.”
(Magic – Olivia Newton John)
Movement
(Pop!)
“My humerus at last repositioned!”
Movie Pick To See: The Gorge
“Heartbeat”
(Shelter – Lone Justice)
Shelter
As she gathered will to
Launch into bright light
Shadowed doubt clung
And fear caused pause
For she did not want
To leave solid ground
Yet as she tentatively
Tried again to attempt
To her surprise he lept
His own wings spread
Joining to accompany
Her efforts protecting
(Through The Veil – GoldieShaumbra)
Full Stop
“I have just managed to extricate myself from the mode of ‘full steam ahead,’ pulling off into an eddied pool as the river of life keeps blasting full throttle downstream.
Having taken damage trying to keep up with the rapids, perhaps more gentle side streams might bypass and reconverge where navigating becomes smoother sailing.”
Han Solo Vs. Chewbacca
“Muscle Hook”
(I Think You’re Cool – Zeds Dead ft. Jenna Pemkowski)
Laid To Rest
“There will be no UI funding, but at least (at last) I can put that conglomerate zombie to ground, dead and buried.
Rest in peace, you tyrannical haunt.
I’ll light a flame in your honor.”
Dark Laughter
To visualize something hilarious
Were she to allow fangs freedom
Helped push back torment’s pain
To regulate her starving systems
Dangerous Cavor-tions
“An upbeat religous singer started praising on the radio about how when you’re curled up on the kitchen floor and the house is on fire, this is not the end – but a rock-solid, firm-on-the-ground new beginning.
And while I appreciated his levitudes, they had the backlash effect of the fact that it is my self that is on fire, and if what he says is true, I do not appreciate any god burning me down so that I may become something new in this manner.
Cackling with overboard insane laughter, I visualized warning the singer who had entered into my domicile unbidden, “You’re in Danger” – and then chasing him around with canine teeth extended until he was effectively flushed out of and well away from my castle!”
(Survive – Lewis Capaldi, Sollos Relax Mix)
(Escape – Kx5, LoKii Remix)
Anything
“Please, just give me any position of comfort.
Anything…”
Darling,
“Is it really you, or am I going mad?”
Dear Friend,
No matter how we feel
We’ve got a taste for one another
And a few good years to kill
No matter what is real
It seems that even in Arcadia
You walk beside me still
—-
(Sleep Token lyrics from “Even In Arcadia”)
Dig Down Into The Mud
What good is all this talk of wings
When there is nothing left above?
—-
(Sleep Token lyrics from “Even In Arcadia”)
Cliff’s Edge
“It seems that I have come to the end of what I can due to bring in income, unless I deviate course drastically and have ability to wait for several months – if not longer.
What purpose to be driven to this precipice with only options as denial or acceptance?”
Constants
“By observing patterns and my own responses, I learn, at least, about coping mechanisms – and about the aspects of myself struggling to gain room for their freedom of expression.”
Misaligned
Cranial bones are shifted.
I Want Out!
Seizes mappings of pain patterns to continue exerting will into reshaping one’s own destiny.
Find Better Ways
“Terrorizing a person into seeking how to just live in each moment is an outdated and wasteful way to treat a human’s decency.”
(Close Your Eyes – Future Of Forestry)
(Close Your Eyes – Forester, Petit Biscuit & Emilia Ali)
Self Regulation
“Gets hard to create when the nerve and chord twist-compress into hot, pinching pain and the panic sets in.”
Candid Corvid Productions 