Dear Alex,

“I’m frightened.

The MRI shows I likely need intervention surgery, asap.

I find out more tomorrow.

It isn’t something that I can fix on my own, and is getting worse too rapidly.

I wish I was wrong about this.

I hope it is better than this.

But it seems pretty obvious my life is at risk.

Maybe there’s another way to interpret this.

I’ve worked hard to keep my grip from slipping.

I don’t know how I can control this fall.”