“I am tired of being played ‘the fool.'”
Month: August 2025
Dancing Forever
It’s complicated
Yet also simple
About timing
And rhythms
Giving
Taking
Risking
Claiming
Reaching for
Identifying
When caution
Is retracting
Pushing past
Barriers yet
Respecting
Fragilities
Protecting
As guiding
Leading as
Following
Gliding
Colliding
Momentum
And slowing
Casting off
As growing
What’s known
New learning
Intertwining
For owning
Expansion’s
Propagation
Through
Seasons
Ebbing
Flowing
Shutting Down
Silence within
Self-protection
Having overshared
Minus need’s proof
Speeding toward edge
Without any parachute
Checking the free fall
Lacking reassurances
Praise Phrasing
“He’s all that – and a bag of chips!”
Flat-Lined
After effects from work.
(Solstice – Valiant & Keerda)
“Lunar Mask”
Providing
It wasn’t just the injuries that had complicated and bogged down her functionality, but the loss from pack members leaving that had been core essential to her striving’s original purpose.
Now that new members had joined her inner circle, she began experiencing traces of renewed strength and strategies’ vision returning.
An Unmatched Pair
Folding Inward
Like a collapsed flan.
For Once
“Walking down the thrift store isle, the trail of unwashed human reek kept extending until – for once – I embraced the too-perfumed exudence of a young woman walking by, which brought relief.”
Sweetlings
Wow!
(Escape – Two Lanes, Episode 1, A Chillout Mix)
“Hidden Pleasure”
“Speed Of Light”
I’m Good Soil
“Received praise from a peer yesterday, meaning that she sees me as a good investment.
Made me laugh – alot – and actually was a key mantra phrase that began connecting my gaps that did not know what concept to latch onto for beginning deeper healing.”
Dear Friend,
Did you know that you are also a healer?
But you’ve been tending poisoned soil
So there have been very few blooms
That could grow as proof of efforts
“The Cave”
Yeah, About That…
Beyond Tolerances
“There comes a point near every late evening.where makeshift stamina’s grace collapses, and further movements are accompanied by quiet grunts and wheezes.”
(I Don’t Want To Live Without You – Foreigner)
Disrimination
“A beloved told me today that a lovely trans cashier was treated horribly during their customer service.
The customer put change down on the counter, refusing to hand it to them or push it closer, stating, ” You people can’t even reach for change!”
Another Driving Escapade
“A driver was riding my end too close, so I swerved to the side to get her off of me.
She decided to slow down and ugly-yell at me, ‘You should’ve turned on your turn signal!’
So I called back, ‘But you were up on my end!’
Whereupon, she drove off and kept griping out loud to herself.”
Intentions
“I don’t want nor need control,
Just trying to cultivate success.”
Helping Flow
“A bee zoomed in through the driver’s side window and got stopped mid-journey by the passenger’s.
So I quickly unrolled that one, and it hurried on its way.”
(Cloud Walking – Astrality)
Dear Friend,
How can we overcome learned insecurities
Making sensory tendrils recoil in anxieties
When we wish to reach out and touch love
But had tips and worse burned when tried?
Thinking of you I become emboldened to
Reach out and take you into my embrace
Looking into your eyes with conviction
Affirming against doubts’ past poisons
But I can only find the perfect timing
In whispers of daydreams filtering in
Past imprinted harborings of damage
We are both perhaps still restricted by
I want us to be freed from these shrouds of
Unfulfilling experiences miscommunicated
Would a path be to recondition ourselves
Applying Cognitive Behavioral retraining?
For surely having had our hearts injured
We must counter by stronger assertions
Although I suspect that experiencing much
Positive reinforcement together will retrain
On levels no other therapy could or would
Create in deeper healing we have needed
Dream Codes
“My mind was innovating verse while deep trance navigating in sleep, and this is one of the lines that filtered to surface:
‘Quone is ogg.’
Archaic language? Otherworldly?
I have no real explanation.”
“The Offering”
“Searching”
Warrior Pose
No gentle side-curling that
Creates extra compression
But sprawled diagonal across the bed
Face-down head between two pillows
Introverts
Math
Tipped Scales
Expectations
Unicorns
Avoidance
“Kind, caring, loving, inclusive, affectionate…
Toxicity calls these endearments ‘too clingy.'”
“Transference”
“Lion Heart”
“Black Swan”
Dear Friend,
I’ve always overachieved and
To succeed, overcompensated
How is it that you could still
Find me attractive if I don’t?
Maybe I’ve spent too much time
Around wrong male simulations
And according to current abilities
Perhaps I am relatively exceeding
Abundance
I need to figure out how to
Cultivate this and flourish
Instability
A thematic that seems to not quit as
A single parent until grown children
Followed by accident’s spinal injury
Dollops a topping of “joke’s on me.”
Past Influences: Rachel Brice’s Datura At Tribal Fest 2013
“Night Swallows Singing While Hunting”
“Dark Emergence”
(Us – Shallou & Ayokay)
Regulating Influences
In good partnership, extremes in life
Can by modulated by love’s comfort
Discussing, strategizing, supporting
Ultimately falling asleep in safe arms
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