“A bright yellow meat bee swiggled in through my open back behind the driver seat car door – and then I had to let him out on the passenger side front door, where he was waiting patiently pondering at the mystery of the window.”
Month: October 2025
(Good News – Shaboozey)
(The Zoo – The Scorpions)
Inner Critic
“I am desireable…
But I don’t know why I can’t believe it.”
The Elephant They Keep Ignoring
If MRI’s show damage to spine and joints
It’s pretty safe to assume that there’s likely
Other muscle/tissue damage around them
—
(Title reference to phrase “the elephant in the room” = huge issue specialists keep ignoring)
Falling Leaves (Song)
By Athena Stairs, October 29, 2025
Oh I’ve been wakin’ up
Under Autumn leaves in Fall
If only I could bring the summer back
‘Cause I was so much braver
When thought I could look forward
To a partner who would have my back
I’m wondering
What do we do about love?
The stars and heavens above
Are waiting
In firelight
All I can see is you
And things that we have gone through
Want to hold you
It’s true
But if we can’t unite
And give this a try
Then winter is goin’ to bite
And I don’t know how
I get through each day
When I ache for you every night
And all this charade
Has been a parade
But its gotta give reality back
‘Cause if it’s a dream
It’s turnin’ obscene
And my heart is gonna have an attack
You see
For me these vibrant leaves
In spiral rhapsody
Remind me
In every way
And I know
That you belong in my arms
The farthest place from harm
Cause’ I told you
That I want you
And when I look ahead
And you’re still not here
An emptiness fills me up
And I don’t know how
To get through this life
Without hope to fill my cup
And if you stay away
What else can I say
But its clear that I’ve run out of luck
And there’s no way to think
If I start to drink
That it’ll do anything but suck
No consoling
Because (slowing to end)
You said you wanted me too
—-
Longing’s desperation.
Chords like Damocles and Euclid by Sleep Token
(Please contact me for permissions)
In The Quiet
(Prismer I – Blackshape)
Dear Friend,
“I’ll show you.
But not here.
Not like this.”
Hope In The Dark
For a moment
It was there
A bridge across
Time between us
Proven instant
That we cared
Unexpected
Resilience
Weird Space Battles
“A too-fragrant skunk passed by my home, emitting too much nervine spew which bombarded my bedroom window, forcing entry and causing me to have crazy one on one combat dreams with aliens of strange, poisonous powers.”
3rd Year
“You can bet I will keep pushing back.”
Cupping
“When performing on self, it can cause temporary abrading – simply from difficulty in maneuvering.
Zombie Romance Movie Pick To See: Warm Bodies
Great Confidence Boosters
“Your timer’s tickin’ – be sure to freak out!”
Feck!
—
(Pneumococcal pneumonia ad, ” If you’re over fifty…!)
(One Breath – Faller Music)
“Capricorn Moon Song”
Unicorn
Hard to forget
Once sighted
Lingering
In dreams
Struggling
“Some things seem necessary to do alone.
But I hate how these injuries seem to be increasingly isolating me as I keep struggling for functionality.”
Spinning
“Can I please not keep getting spun off of the ground into emergency modalities?”
—
(Important phone calls and deadlines interfering with trying to show up for classes.)
Autopilot
Having arrived at destination after a long drive while on the phone hands free, settling into reality as if just now waking up, the thought emerges of “I don’t even know how I got here…”
Whyyyyyy???
“Does everything have to be so difficult?
It’s the same ol’ sh** – only haaardeeerr!!!”
—
(Just trying to get out the door!)
Not The Only One
Crying for wanting true love.
(Do You Feel The Same? – Emmit Fenn – OCULA Remix)
Love’s Symmetry
She led him through
Spring and summer
He led her through
Autumn and winter
Polar opposites
Finding rhythm
With the
Seasons
Summer Love
It has become
Harder to wake
The mornings are cold
No sunshine heat bake
Fall is beautiful
But brings gloom
Winter’s promise
Sapping everything
Dive down nestle
Deep into covers
Dreaming of spring
Ignoring long nights
Remember summer
Where limbs expand
Unafraid to be exposed
Crisped golden in wonder
Continuum
Showing truth
Briefly confiding
A trail to follow
If truly interested
Erasing steps
Unsure if valued
Reappearing in
Cloaked costume
Still the same
Heart searching
For where
It is wanted
Being There For Eachother
You Reminded Me
Sleep Token “Aqua Regia” Lyric Passage
“Oh, and I am done dancing to alarm bells
No wonder my ears are still ringing
And I am done fighting off change
No wonder my arms are still swinging”
Dear Friend,
“I think we have already proven that we are worthy.
It’s now about developing trust and new consistency.”
“Reaching Inward”
(My Focus Is You · MASHB3AT)
hCaptcha
“OMG – NOOOO!
Exactly that which activates my brain injury!”
—
(Trying to access lyrics – and bailing!)
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