Month: November 2025
Just One Dance?
Dear Friend,
I couldn’t tell you everything I needed
In that lightning-bolt moment waiting
I’m sorry I didn’t respond immediately
When everything mattered suddenly
I needed time with you to unpack
& for us to get to know each other
So that we could share confidentially
In safety’s security-assured building
I miss you terribly and hope that
You’ll give us a real chance soon
(Natural Disaster – Jeremy Zucker)
Contract-ion
He was an elemental force that
She wanted to wholly embrace
But she was frozen in place
Looking for solid grounding
She needed commitment
On every imaginable level
To keep her family nourished
So she could share his passion
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
“Dark Signs”
(Waiting On A Friend – The Rolling Stones)
Repost from December 2021
Handling Fire
Denied Temptation
A younger man arrived, entwining his fingers with hers, wrapping his arm around her waist in that familiar way of lovers – and behaving as if he would give her the moon and stars if she’d consent to being his.
And while this unfamiliarity but desired regard felt lovely, she paid attention to the fact that an older street woman witch kissed him, yet said she would grant the couple freedom this one night.
But the dreamer didn’t want to give or take anything for temporary.
So she spoke up and told the man about the performance troup behind the bar that just then finished playing, and how she used to play drums like they did.
And then she stepped aside to take some night photos of the moon in interesting position to a neatly designed building.
With every gesture of her true self emergung, the spell he and the witch tried to lure her by became weaker and weaker.
And though she felt cold and empty as she further disengaged, she knew that she desired the real thing from another.
Better to love someone true from afar than sell herself short to someone under cover.
The One Thing
“I have always wanted, I see others getting to have.
Despite my grief and continued losses, I will always support others getting to have it.”
(Butterfly Effect – Traffic Scott)
For What Good?
“I am being stripped of my abilities.”
(Take Me Back To Eden – Sleep Token)
Frustration
(Lines We Never Spoke – Nocturnova & Serhii Stepko)
“Entling”
Eagles
Admit It: The Force
Crows On The Job
Yeah, Likely True
Movie Pick To See: Love & Other Drugs
Movie Spoiler: I Need You Clip
Ooo
“The owls are calling…”
Good Ol’ “College Try”
“I think I put my best foot forward this quarter.
It isn’t my fault that I was sabotaged by accumulated cleanser slickery and lack of shower bars.”
It Becomes Clear
“Society still has much to grow toward – and it is its own organism, in a way, that also needs nourishment’s support.”
Give Me Some (Aqua Regia – Sleep Token)
I need to calm my shakey system…
How Does It Help
“To shame, disregard, and mistreat a patient in honest need?”
FlipSides
There is no sunnyside up when
More mistreatment in “society”
The silver lining being no bleeding
And deeper bonding with children
As Far As I Can Go
The paramedics, except one, did not want to take her seriously.
And right when they arrived at the hospital’s exchanging, her being felt that she was not being transferred into safe keeping.
Immediately, the intake male nurse disregarded the pain and difficultties that she was having.
He made her further hurt herself by refusing to help her reattempt on her own to get into the wheelchair in his disregard’s treating her inhumanely.
Until she refused to try anymore until they brought someone who had any decency.
An older woman arrived, and for no provocation they’d also brought security.
The older woman stepped in front of her and to the right – and then the patient could grip and position herself where they wanted her to be.
The older woman hummed softly as she pushed her to a room where she could lay down again to manage the pain and imbalanced fluid exchange.
A brief blessing of kind compassion that help her reorient and keep trying to self stabilize.
It was a room reserved for mental patients, with cameras and a lockable closing door, where she could hear the nursing staff loudly joking at the ER station and one later said after she pressed the help button – “As if there isn’t someone down the way who is actually dying!”
At that point, she got help to call her eldest, because they didn’t seem to care or believe that she was dealing with brain trauma.
And while she was waiting, she finally began recording how loud and irreverent they were all being generally, irregardless of the fact people were there, hurt and dying.
They must’ve seen and heard her on the cameras, etc., because suddenly the noise got quieter.
And once her eldest arrived, they became more respectful and her eldest helped advocate for another scan against the doctor’s resistance to ensure that the sudden onset of symptoms did not include further risk from hemoraging.
‘Please take me to a different hospital if needed in the future,’ she requested to her eldest at the end.
Nothing like being confused and terrified with people making it worse by refusing to help as gaslighting.”
Addle-Pated
“Honestly…
I liked how I was before the accidents.
But I can try to still be some forms of me despite them.”
After ER
“No bleeding, yet my own discovery that inflammation also serves to cushion injury – so that when fluids suddenly drain, abrupt changes in presssure in and around the brain can cause various system disregulations, includimg more pain.”
SH**
Another ER trip.
Oh, That’s Funnn
“Standing up and feeling nausea as my legs turn purple and weight floods my solar plexus.
Help!
I think I’m going into shock.
Lying back down to try and let waves passover me…
This sucks!
Greeaat
“My face is breaking out with impact blotches.
Internal bruising filtering its way to the surface?
I guess this is a good sign – meaning that the dense forehead trauma is trying to break up and alleviate internal pressure.
But its effects look like a type of subtle liver splotching swelling on my face.
Come on, Crone!
Give me a fu**ing break!
(I Tried – CloudNone & Kazukii)
Earth Magic
Dig down deep into the ground
Closing eyes so they may see
Old wounds still festering
Hiding truths of you and me
Let them bleed out by confessing
Without harm to our life’s legacy
We are not flawed nor broken and
Must allow ourselves to break free
From enchantments still denying
How we have always been worthy
And are designed for
Love’s greatest glory
ReIdentification
But they had not deserved what had happened to them – even though they could find plenty of fault in reviewing their own past “mistakes” and extreme behaviorisms enacted that had originally stemmed from source of good and worthy intentions, but had become corrupted over time by continued unrequitement.
So she gently-but-firmly held onto him, refusing to let him go until the spell was broken and their phasing could match – whether back into wolf, human, or some other form better for coinciding.
Defining The Object
She knew where it must have happened…
They had both given too muvh to past mates who had not wanted them, and other competitors had come along, taking advantage of their life bond’s power imbalances.
They had each been so open-hearted and invested that they had not realized their own vulnerability – and had been blasted by hits of betrayal.
Aggravation
The black wolf burst into growling, at once feeling the “threat” to their situation.
But rather than let him dig and burst out to attck the well-meaning healer, she grabbed onto him, aware that his scrabbling sharp claws and pierce-snapping jaws could at any moment turn against her.
Surprisingly, he didn’t attack her.
He at first fought against her arms restraining him – but then hearing her cries of pain as her wounds ripped and feeling her will’s determination that for some reason he must stay still in her arms, his aggression subsided into quiet, trembling panting.
She had realized something.
She and the wolf were caught in a duality polar opposites enchantment.
She determined that they would stay in the earth’s concealment, and be receptive to their curse being broken.
Elemental Healing
The younger woman realized that she must have found the place by how the environment suddenly went very still and silent, as if everything were listening and guarding.
“Still as a tomb” – that was the feeling.
She realized that something different was needed here than she had originally thought and intended.
Deeper earth magic…
Deeper healing.
Above Ground
There was a younger woman looking for her, reading the signs, wanting to find and help her as she checked mounds of leaves to try to identify the tree for where she should begin digging.
But while she appreciated the love and healing that could be shared and provided by this younger one, she willed that for once just leave her there and buried.
She was hurt and tired with her youth’s luster pounded out of her.
She quieted her heart’s beating, willing her cell energy to slow, mask, and blend with the earth’s conduits.
Let her fuse with the elements.
Perhaps they would be her redeeming.
She couldn’t bear the heaviness and pain anymore of trying to work against gravity.
So let her soul become heavy…
Heavy as stone.
Buried, Alive
She didn’t understand how the black wolf had found her, but since she had been phasing between forms as she ran to ground, she must have left trace trails everywhere.
How she fashioned her thought creations must be like dropping formed petals of hopes and desires along breezy trails that got swept up by little gusts of wind and carried off floating until they landed, fluttering for others to find or miss along their own paths’ travels.
And it was getting colder now as the seasons shifted rapidly from bright leaves falling as their energy spiraled down into winter’s underground dreaming.
He seemed to be asleep, resting against her back, his strength’s heat keeping her system shock shivering down to a minimum.
So she carefully turned, hoping to not wake him, and breathed in his warmth more fully, nestling her face into his long scruff that smelled of green grass, sheltering earth, and the spicey hint of forest detritus that releases into the air as it gets crunched underfoot.
Daring further, she brought her arms up to protect her chest with hands under her chin and tentatively extended her fingers to feel and gently brush the nape of his glossy jet fur.
He was still there with her, but she didn’t know why.
If he were a man, would he welcome her into his arms and protect her like this?
She imagined her head resting upon her mate’s chest, listenimg to his heartbeat, as their arms wrapped around each other like the roots of trees, securing.
Dear Friend,
“Oh, to be able to reach out to touch and grasp your fingers, reassuring you as you reassure me…”
(Hold On My Heart – Genesis)
“I’m Lichen It!”
Dear Friend,
“Are you my ‘Jekyll and Hyde?'”
(Camera – Ed Sheeran)
Dear Friend,
“Please do not judge your light and dark sides against each other.
They both have validity and compliment each other.”
(Start Again – Kaxukii)
Progressions
The fact that I have managed to create
What I have created through the years
Is testament of my determination to
Lean against barriers until they budge
