She had needed to be sure
She was not just going to
Have a hot tryst with him
No matter who he was
And regardless of how
Important he was to her
Month: December 2025
(The Intro – xx, Long Version)
Demon Seeds
Goths In Paradise
The Queen’s Bird
(Diamonds – Lane 8 & Solomon Grey)
Mirror Mosaics
Born To Love
(Run – Lane 8 & Kasablanca VIP)
Right There
That’s where slippage happens
They say taking drugs will help
But unless they are also healing
Their rides take us other places
Do what you need that is right for you
But for me medication’s been negative
No More Losses
I can’t afford effects of the ride by
Taking drugs, drinks, or medication
That would cause any imbalance in
How I manage emotional currents
Because I am still captaining my ship
With people dependent upon strength
If I break down during financial hardships
The wreckage would become unavoidable
So therefore I do not have the ‘luxury’ of
Being someone who has ‘medical needs’
Drug Abuse
She had wanted to crash under my wing
Seeing how I fought for my own family
But she was hard into drugs and alcohol
Already with a DUI knocking on my door
We were sandwiched between addicts
And she held power over our housing
I needed to keep her out of our haven
Because she was in destructive chaos
I chose to assert my boundaries but
Helped her with parole and probation
Encouraged her through rehabilitation
But she wanted me involved in legality
I refused because of the implied liability
Her neglectful family could turn on me
So she turned to her controlling friends
Taking harder drugs so that she’d fit in
I’d a sense she was heading directions
I could not control despite hard trying
I wasn’t surprised when she turned on me
Just confirmed I’d been right in my clarity
Because I needed my sight to navigate
The quagmire she’d created as we fled
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
Dear Friend,
“It’s your time to shine.”
Two Hunters
They came across each other’s paths
High up in the boulder mountain pass
Where societal rules thinned like air
Laws of harming changing into care
He caught her and then she had escaped
He got hurt so she put him on her horse
Back at her village he could have raided
But he chose to stay, help, and marry her
—
(In a dream)
(Floating – Massane)
“Emerald Forest”
Caught Up
“On you.”
—-
(Sleep Token’s “Provider”reference)
“UnAmused”
Conflict
Is the underlying need that
Of learning and growing?
(Ancient Dreams In A Modern Land – MARINA)
(Assassin – Sultan Shepard)
12 Strings
“I spent about an hour figuring out how to and working on tuning.”
Ooooo
“My super awesome instructor’s last help to me has been finding chords for my song, ‘King of Hearts.’
Maybe, just maybe, I can learn these chords on my ‘magic harp’ as a way to ‘break the ice’ between my Electro and me!”
New Love – Le Youth, Sultan + Shepard, & Panama Extended Mix)
The Ex
“How could he be there for everyone else, but not for me?
I don’t even really need to care, anymore.
I just don’t understand why I was branded negatable.
And maybe, it is better if I just avoid that whole thing.”
(Aquiver – Le Youth)
Still Up To Me
“There is nothing different available to me than what I have already been doing on my own to recover from the original car accident injuries.”
Off The Table
“The PA told me that basic concussions easily take 4-6 weeks for recovery, but can take much longer if more severe – especially if compounding prior brain injury.
Looks like I am in the latter category, as school and extra pursuits are no longer an option at present.”
Do It – Do It
Inner Light
Hug
The Gift
“On The Grid”
Why Do I?
Let’s discuss this
More in privacy
Over time
Together
Funny How
One moment can hold so much meaning
It causes defensive reaction misreading
A Moment’s Disbelief
Shock…
That’s what it was that covered everything.
And fear…
Because it mattered so much.
It meant so much to her for him to be there.
Was it real?
Was that really him?
And he was there for her?
She had to know – she had to know, first.
Because she didn’t want to assume.
She couldn’t dare to be mistaken.
Because she’d wanted it to be true.
More than anything.
Because I Do
“Maybe you should let it go…” he said.
But she refused.
“I’ll count the days…” she said, instead.
Karavinka Dance
(Oceanlab – Satellite, Seven Lions Remix)
(So This Is Love – Ilene Woods, The Voice Of Cinderella)
(Sh-Boom – The Chords)
Yeah…’Cause She’s Done
Stripped Synapses
It makes me very angry to be
Forced into taking medications
Because I no longer have buffers
(Black Out Days – Phantogram)
MAXED OUT
“How the heck – and why the heck would I even dare to dream about having a healthy relationship when everything around me is noise, pain, and chaos – and not one partner-zoned man has pulled weight in a relationship with me?!!!”
I Can’t Rest
“There is almost always a noise bashing, scraping, stomping, crashing…
How do I recover?
How do I not scream – insane?”
Then, She Realized
She used to stay longer and read in the bathroom
When under pressure from being undermined
Why Am I Here?
She was sitting in the bathroom
Just eating a crispy rice treat
Because her head hurt
By Design
She could only mean as much to him
As he would allow her to mean to him
Realizing this barrier made her
Want to scream Hell at Heaven
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(Title of multiple references)
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