Month: January 2026
Silent Space
“I do not do well with being on the receiving side of silence or distance at length because these have too often represented avoidance from or abandonment by people that I have deeply cared about.
However, somehow by observation, experience, intuition or the combo, I managwd to assess the situation correctly over the weekend and gave my potential collaborators the quiet safe space that they needed in order to be able reset and come back to meet me halfway.
Quite an accomplishment for all of us, I think – given history of our own and collective past experiences!”
TeamWork
“We came together and got done what needed to be done – Huzzah!”
Frontside View
“I remember working at the laundry of the motel with a nearby view of Morro Bay Rock while I was camping out of my car.
It seemed idylic, in a way, and I soaked up the ‘freedom’ of it.
But there couldn’t be a futire in it…
Not when I had a youngling to care for, and a fiance dependent upon my earnings to qualify for our marriage being approved.”
(Euclid – Sleep Token)
KAMI KAMI KAMI
Kami Kami Kami Kami Kami
Yep
“I’m upset about it…
But I can’t afford the emotional expenditure to allow myself to cavitate to it.”
Full Encircling
“That’s right…
My first recordings are from that summer living out of my car.
‘You’ve come a long way, Baby!’
Distance, not advancement…
Or maybe advancement is distance?
I mean, aren’t we all just trying to outrun the great maw of our own demise, anyway?
Maybe I’ve got a head start…”
Did I Mention?
“Yeah…
No…
I’ll be on my own again…
Be kind of funny if I end up living out of my car again.
At this point…who cares?”
(Lol)
Captain’s Lair
“Looking back on just the last six months at all of the ‘water’ that has been waded through, at least my room is at last put together the way I want it to be before we have to move.
It seems to go like this…
I guess it just takes a couple of years to find the rhythm of a new dwelling.”
*Twitch* (Calm / Study Ambient Music)
Stress
“Life doesn’t have to be like this.
Why the f**k is it like this?
Nyreauuugh!!!“
(Moonlight – Leadwave)
“Dragon’s Gaze”
Eclipse
Despair warred against the hope within her.
(Where Light and Shadow Meet – Vicente Avella)
“My Love For You”
“Turning Divine”
(Anytime – Brian McKnight)
Too Close Without Comfort
“Watching the older gentleman backing up and going forward in his hot rot medical chair while letting his little dog sniff bushes outside on the street, I recognized him from when we were living out of the hotel before the car accident.
Too close to similar scenario – but this time with no ability to work hard to pay those daily high rates – has me not wanting to talk too much about the hysteria clamoring inside of me.
I would much rather be conversing with my love about passion and its charms.”
“I Dream”
When You Love Someone
“You become the happiest you’ve ever been.
And then, do you know what you get?
You get wings – and then you can fly.”
—
(Movie reference, “I Am Dragon”)
“Let It Be”
Let It Be The Way You Want
Just don’t leave me now.
I can’t be without you.
—
(Movie reference, “I Am Dragon”)
A Man Or A Dragon
I love you for who you are.
—
(Movie reference, “I Am Dragon”)
My Love,
“Stay with me like this for a while…
Let me get used to you.”
And she holds the dragon’s head in her lap.
—
(Movie reference, “I Am Dragon”)
End Of Line
“I am no longer going to read anonymous love messages.”
(Not Today – Kim Gordon)
(Born 2 – Water From Your Eyes)
(Blood – Kassie Krut, JLB Remix)
My Job
“Holding the line and not adding gasoline to the fire.”
(The Sound It Made – Robber Robber)
The Location
“Was ironic.”
The Drop Off
“I just saw a hooker bring dtopped off.”
(Love Is Blue – Paul Mauriat, 1968)
Trust Fades
In the shivering cold.
Another Bitter Pill
Unfulfilled promises.
Wasted Potential
Time slips through fingers
Aching to carress and hold
Secure Vs. Other Attachment
“Into The Woods”
(Rejoice – Def Leppard)
We Are The Universe
How Far Back?
Unicorns In Love
It Couldn’t Matter
No matter what, she must not attach to the outcome.
DisEmpowered
Apparently, last night’s medicine combination took the “oomph” out of today’s stride –
Or weakness of legs because her housing safety was teetering on the edge of a cliff, dependent upon others’ whims for which way the wind would be blowing?
Muscle Firing
She could feel the energy spiking and erupting within her cells, responding and needing to address the fight that she had to avoid at all costs for the greater healing at stake.
It’s Not Enough
If they did not work with her, the ship would burn down with her still on it.
“Light Beyond The Pale”
Laughter In The Eaves
She could feel that the tension had broken, and that her messages of good will and faith had likely been received.
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