Month: January 2026
There’s Only One
Truth To Face
I still love you
I still want you
—
(Reference to Sting’s “A Thousand Years” lyrics)
(A Thousand Years – Sting)
A Woman’s Burden
Jagged glass
Broken pottery
Cobblestones
Slick-wearied
Dirt-streaked
Tears’ honesty
On a cloaked
Face hiding
Eyes that still
See everything
Reciprocation
An agreement of
Mutual submission
By degrees obtained
Through give and take
(Even In Arcadia – Sleep Token)
The Stuff Of
Her Nightmares
KAMI KAMI KAMI KAMI KAMI
Bearing down, digging into the earth’s energy to maintain sanity’s direction.
“It Isn’t Safe”
Her injuries’ distortion could not stop triggering panic.
Freezing was the only way that she could stop from overreacting.
Darn It
Her muscles were locking down, rendering her incapable of getting productive, because the environment had become hostile and resentful toward her.
She understood what was happening and why and that it wasn’t her fault, but still, she had to brace against the weight of being seen as the target.
It Hurts
“To be unseen for my truest intentions because of others’ past traumas and fears, further cast upon me by their dispersions.”
Energies Against Love
“Need to get a real job.”
I Don’t Think So
“I am not interested in negative manipulations – for I already have plenty of real life issues that I am trying to take care of!”
(Joe & Kathleen – Movie You’ve Got Mail, Song Invisible String)
(Yes, I’m Ready – Teri DeSario & K.C., 1979)
Hon,
How will I know that it is ok and safe to keep being myself around you?
I have always had to mask due to walking on eggshells around toxic critics trying to belittle me.
You are so important and represent so much that is important to me that it has brought forward such near-painful lockdown shyness!
Will you reach for and keep reaching for me to draw me out of my shell and reassure me?
Because I definitely want to be the one who does this too, for you.
My Little Minions
Reaching into the package to pull out the small ear plug container for storing the two that she had been wearing, she shook the bag briskly to loosen the other plugs that had clustered too tightly and were blocking access.
Truly Me
I had a dream where I was at a low-key party, and all of these men took turns wanting me to get to know them.
Of course, I misread their attentions as them wanting to get to know me – except for this one who was quiet and just watching.
In every one of them I searched for my love, though fascinated by what they were doing.
I just haven’t ever had that much male attention directed at me, and inside I felt uncomfortable although externally friendly-engaging while I kept glancing around me to try to regain my bearings.
I kept returning to the man who was quiet – then another guy would come along chatting.
I realized then that it was a matchmaking event, where I was supposed to give each one some time.
Then, a cat with a kitten came up purring against me and began talking to me while I was briefly able to return to the quiet man, and they told me with words about his affection for me because he wouldn’t say much in person.
Special cats.
Special man.
I felt more comfortable with him and the felines, and planned to cycle back again despite the chaos.
Before this, I dreamed of a spirited but mature female horse that followed and trusted me as I kept her safe.
I also dreamed of my mother and I having a conflict where she hard-harsh challenged me – but then she yielded to my blasted back authority because I was right, and we made up as friends and were at peace, finally.
Receptivity
She felt like her body was shifting, preparing to welcome him.
(Halo – Beyonce)
Bragging Rights
I think it is clear that you have earned a few.
They Cometh
How I Feel About You
There is a charge around my solar plexus
A place that has been my warning system
Only it flares and crackling-light bubbles
Like sparkling, popping-igniting fireworks
Yesterday we met a man who was like you
But was missing rare essential ingredients
He held out his hand to shake mine and I
Imagined at distance that it could be you
He kept glancing at me though married
And my gut energy was spiral-churning
So much closer my pulsing energy wanted
To have it actually be you in my life’s realm
I was glad that he finally took his leave
As I then looked for you in the evening
Because nothing and no one has ever set
My instincts alive connecting soul to body
Like feeling you could be here with me
Hard flips my being’s circuits embodied
(Priceless · for King & Country)
Beings Of Love
Here is a salute for you:
Thank you for enduring
Thank You, Hon
For all that you do.
Tit-For-Tat
“You’ve been driving me crazy,” he confessed to her with humor.
She got a sweet dimple in her cheek when she replied mischievously, “The least that I could do was to return the favor!”
Yeah…
You don’t fight fair.
Hugs.
It Was A Big Day
“And we might be able to save our housing.”
My Love,
I miss you more than words can say to describe this ache.
Sleep well and know that my heart is with you.
Tranked
“I was told that the medicine combo would be fine, but it made me slurry-delirious too exhausted.
However, I bet that when I actaully try to sleep, good ol’ insomnia will suddenly wave it off!”
“I Am Dragon”
“Let’s Begin Again” (Song)
By Athena Stairs, January 23, 2026
Lately I’ve been
Fussin’ and cryin’
It’s just so much
That you mean to me
Life’s pain
Has been insane
Back in force
Runnin’ its course
Baby come away
Lets seize these days
Because loving you
Makes me brand new
Let’s create our
Dreams come true
Adhering to
Our own rules
—
(Contact me for permissions)
Make It Real
“‘Cause anything’s better than the way I feel.”
(Sleep Token reference)
Where Do I Stop?
It was like she kept re-living different versions if the same nightmares.
Estranged Times
She remembered looking back, how her ex-husband had contacted her parents, expecting to cast off his responsibility to her onto them once her capabilities had been used to exhaustion and she had been worn down into a frenzy.
She tried her best to not equate the situations.
Signing Off
She knew that it was soon to be requested that the captain give official notice as proof of their resolution – which had she been like most many figures of authority, could have been refused.
But she knew from both sudes the cost and value of freedom – and she did not crave the standard forms of power.
Dancing In The Flames
“I found a way, but it requires more collaboration.
And it looks like they want to break off on their own, anyway.”
(Can’t We Just Talk – Khalid)
“Pixelated”
And Then,
The plunger breaks.
Hon,
Do you have a place where we can go to talk and work things out together?
That Precious Last Step
How do unicorns meet when they are so brave at distance or when needing to charge to assert or defend – but then their hearts are quivering with frail vulnerability when falling in love, again?
So Shy
An affliction they both struggled with in person.
(Damn I Wish I Was Your Lover – Sophie B. Hawkins)
A “Simple” Suggestion
Once they’d broken through the ice and he felt assured of better footing, he allowed his confidence to come forward and cued her with a voice so low and husky, “Aren’t you going to come hug me now, my darling?”
The Dance Of Koi
They kept circling each other like Yin and Yang, trying to figure out how to get closer for fusion.
I’ve Been Noticing
Things keep trying to get in our way.
Are we going to let them?
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