“Some people propagate this to gain their own advantage.
Sometimes all one can do it to abstain from feeding into it.”
“Some people propagate this to gain their own advantage.
Sometimes all one can do it to abstain from feeding into it.”
“Somewhere, my good must be earning interest…”
“How am I going to handle this one?”
I wanted you to think good things about me because I live my life clean and work to achieve.
But now, people are lying about and defaming my character so that they can make other gains.
Shock
Massive betrayal
Incredulity at the unnecessary harm caused
Branded
Hoisting the weight
Locking down
Figuring out how to get it off of me
Shut down
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By Athena Stairs, March 5, 2026
I left my heart in California
It’s still attached by its membrane
You’d think that I could grow another
But there’s no blood for its exchange
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“Yet in reverse you are all my symmetry
A parallel I would lay my life on
So if your wings won’t find you heaven
I will bring it down like an ancient bygone”
(Sleep Token “Euclid”)
“Fleeting moments of glimmering sparks, best remembered as protected.”
“Is definitely not a fecking holiday.”
She had checked in person with the service provider the day before, yet when the important phone call came, her service had been turned off anyway – rendering her incapable.
Again
“The gentle, ‘no makeup look.'”
(An ad)
Lay me down where
Waves reach softly
Gently rinsing away
Tears in The Garden
When the man one day returned, there was only one part of intimacy that he wanted from her.
And he was always “too tired” to reciprocate.
“Affection” is affection, right?
But hollow love makes a hollow soul.
Especially after all of the damage that he had caused when he had left her.
Entitled.
Glorified.
Inhumane.
And then, he prioritized every whim of an abussive narcisist who poisoned anything good and functional.
And he would not break off contact with the prior home wrecker.
And he expected that the woman should defer to him under these circumstances.
And she wasn’t his responsibility – clearly, she was short-sighted.
In fact, she was “too needy” and should “get a grip on reality.”
Then he pursued another female who he claimed was a better match for him.
But he still wanted and needed “access.”
Everything that the woman had ever held sacred was flayed as she was tormented.
Her only way to escape was to self-eviscerate.
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(Title of a past classic bumper sticker)
Draw me into your movements
Picture-perfect mirror imaging
Catching the timing of waves
Flowing – crashing to ebbing
Wisk my winds into frenzies
To rival hurricane horizons
Then return me gently to shore
Where begin again ever more
“I don’t want to just be this, again.”
They try to crowd in
But I must decide
What takes hold
I will want to love you, for always.
So treat me well, Darlin’ – so that I can keep on tryin’ to treat you even better.
Let’s make livin’ this life together so very much worth our every effort.
“I remember when I could run…”
That which exposes limits so that we quit
Or
Surpass them to stoke flames even higher
“They are important…but I need solutions.”
It’s always been here between us…
I just couldn’t afford to bleed out if you needed to keep running.
“When ignored and villified, provokes ‘Its’ baser needs to surpass healthy limits in its defense.
And are we not ‘cast from God’s image?’
Therefore, ‘Gods’ are also like humans and need what we need to thrive and succeed.
And any worthy ‘God’ wants its worshippers happy.
It’s just common sense biofeedback.”
Had become a mere whisper barely felt or acknowledged in a world under seige.
Until “He” found two worthy souls and helped them bridge their hearts for mending.
Look what “He” has done for you and me.
He is offering us clemency – if you’ll swing your sword to cut the Gordion Knot for our freedom.
Your love has always been the key.
For all of this time, she had been a sacrificial pawn of the “God” of Neglect and Denied Needs.
She’d done it, again.
She’d fallen for the messages – had allowed her heart to reveal what she had been hiding for so long, underneath.
And the man had withdrawn – just like the others had before – leaving her circuit board lit up with suffering and never-ending hunger aching with longing unredeemed.
What did “He” want from her, after all?
What did “He” want to see?
“Bleed for me…” came The Need.
“Prove to me how much you want me to grant you this man’s offering.
Show me that you’ll be faithful, no matter how much you grieve…”
He gave love to friends in need – by interrupted calls and right in right of her – while starving and cutting her off (the one person standing up for and who gave to him) as if to make her feel how much he was suffering for still staying attached to her.
It seemed that he was trying to maneuver her into breaking off from their relationship, but because she could see behind the scenes and the larger picture, she refused to give up on him – no matter how he treated her.
(Past ex-experiences)
“Go with “God,” following what heals and propagates nourishent.”
No matter how hard it gets to
Still stand for the truth of good
I need your arms around me.
I am pushing so hard to overcome.
Difficulty levels are escalating pressures.
Some things must not be said when one has reached the tipping off point.
I hope that all is well with you, and that your sleep is peaceful and rejuvenating.
“Busting through barriers like a bronco careening forward at speed, trying to out-distance self damage.”
Anyway