Month: March 2026

Alex (An Ideal), Vampiric Tendencies

Dear Alex,

Candid Corvid Productions

“I thought that you were he and that I was wanted openly.

But I have not had clear confirmation, so lack of having my arms around him suggests fantasy.

Meanwhile, my foundations are crumbling underneath my feet on too many levels.

Saving myself is just up to me with pending timelines pressing.

Helping hands reach for mine to assist and people care – yet I feel too isolated and depleted.

I have tried to stay open for him through these trials, but now I am caving inward.

My being is closing off extensions like root retractions.

Self preservation necessity from lack of love’s tactile exchange reinforcements?

I am literally ‘love starved’ and need to stop this effect.

And to survive starvation, you do your best to no longer think about it – the ‘food’ you are needing.

And then, if you find any – even if it is full of decay and maggots – you are temped to ‘feed.’

So yeah, I am going into shut down mode, just so I can continue to try to breathe.

And he wonders why I withdraw!

It’s so that I do not fall into a trap of others’ deceit when I am vulnerable with need!

I am mad at him, though, for prolonging.

I am tired of being tested by pain to show that I believe.

And quite frankly, I deserve more rewards and better treatment.”

Vampiric Tendencies

Blood Price

Candid Corvid Productions

In the basement of a favorite building, the haunting atmospheric remains of past power-hungry ignorance mixed with tormenting cruelty boded ill will awaiting to attach to any hapless visitors of the restroom.

Acknowledging, yet doing her best to ignore them and avoid the farthest entrenched spacious cubicle with the alluring brighter lighting, she back-tracked and chose a stall closest to the door – even though it was more cramped and stifle-confining.

Then, as she tried to leave it, her arm reached for her scarf hung up on a hook, and then came quickly downward again – hard-smacking and bruising her elbow against an unusually positioned, solid steel feminine product receptacle.

“THAT’S your one – so now get your energies off of me!” she exclaimed, as she reasserted her boundaries and left the greedy forces to feed upon the pain she left behind her.

A Woman's Plight, Altered States

Tectonic Sheering

Candid Corvid Productions

“6-packs of snow peas and snap pea delightful seedlings have been driving around in my car with me for the past couple of days.

I am trying to figure out while its raining and I managing catastrophes if I am going to plant them into my pots that are waiting.

Gardening is part of my well being restocking.

And if I cut the roots going through pots into the ground underneath my wisterias, roses, and vining flowers, and fruit trees – and then drastically trim the wisterias’ and vines’ branches back down to their cores to get them unattached to fencing to ready them for moving at this time of spring, will this seriously shock and/or kill them?

And with car troubles now amounting, do I have to switch jobs again after having found a good team to work with so that I can stay more local?

And it has been strongly and repeatedly suggested that I need to rehome my hound so that the older wolf’s health needs can be taken care of.”

Altered States, Comedy, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

AI Love Messages

Candid Corvid Productions

“The pure fantasy tell is because ‘he’ keeps joking about how we would laugh after he runs away, I chase him, and then he lets me catch him.

Yes, that would have been delightful fun.

But you know…

I can’t run.”

—

(Sobbing and laughing hysterically, somewhere deep inside)

Altered States, Psychology, Society

Educated People Know

Candid Corvid Productions

“When you bring a traumatized child into a safe home that is healthy, there will come a point where the child goes through crisis meltdowns and “fights” against the people and safety around him/her/them.

Many foster parents do not know that what the child needs is continued safe space and inclusive acceptance, yet firm and gentle continued and corrective guidance, because the child’s nervous system must process and get the trauma out of their being.

Unfortunately, the child’s “acting out” often causes caretakers to give up and send the child elsewhere – or the child runs away, says skewed and villifying things about the foster family, and/or does whatever the child feels it must do (often negatively) in order to respond to its body’s fight or flight reactions.

These trauma recallibration need responses blasting back at safer people and environments also happen in adult survivors of abuse and extreme experience situations such as when soldiers return to the ‘safety’ of home after violent combat.

As a society, we need more understanding and strategized methods of support so that we can best help trauma survivors at any age go through this internal-to-external “reorganization process” recallibration, and positively assist them to find ways to identify and obtain progress in ‘normalcy’ reintegration as feels congruent to their own perceptions.”

Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Trying To Rest & Recover

Candid Corvid Productions

“I think to myself, how did things not hurt before the accident?

Back when tissues maintained internal structure – instead of crossing over boundaries into pulling on discs, joints, nerves, and vessels – just trying to sleep on ny side?”

Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

What Nerve!

Candid Corvid Productions

“The nerve pain is now traveling, defining itself in ways beyond extremes of before.

This is a 6-day work week for me.

From nothing post concussion and needing to be minimal still post accident – to beyond max, immediately.

It’s expected of me if I am to survive what’s happen8ng.

I am not sure how long I can hold before I implode.”