Author: Candid Corvid Productions
- Creative Creations for Clever Minds! -
Dear Alex,
He must have no idea how his promise affected me.
I am in constant war with myself to keep balanced.
How could he offer – awakening – and then just leave?
I fight to suppress my feelings daily to keep breathing.
(Wide Open – The Chemical Brothers)
Open Eyes
There is a great deal to
Address and overcome
In creating and building
A functional relationship
(Coolsville – Laurie Anderson)
Song repost from November 2021.
Over And Over Again
I am stuck on a repeat cycle where
Men are attracted to be my burden
What I mean is they like my strength
So think they can put weight on me
For the health of our relationship
Desiring a free ride’s easy breeze
So I have to keep my heart reigned
Ready to stop and walk away again
Because attraction’s initiation
Doesn’t guarantee partnership
Too Little Too Late
When he met me he saw a nice body
On a mistreated sweet young woman
He wanted to be the hero
But without responsibility
He did not want to meet and
Grow beyond life challenges
Yet connecting, I leveled up quickly
Having desired to constantly evolve
And he realized that
He’d made a mistake
And refused to discuss
Collaboration’s change
3 Simple Rules
Hawk & Coon
(The Man – The Killers)
Repost from March 2022
A Wild Ride
“Feeling one’s brain shift around inside.”
(Ouch!)
Dream Vs. Reality
The American Way
Desiring a personal holiday
Despite barriers prohibiting
(Love Worth Fighting For – Calum Scott)
Gardening
Proud Of Myself
“I figured out where the paper clips were – and that I could use the pointy tip of one to clear out the hole of my incense holder so that I could insert another stick!”
Success!
“Concussion retriggered – but bedroom floor is vacuumed!”
Boss Mode
Read Right To Left
(You Make Me Real – IXO)
(Here Comes The Flood – Peter Gabriel – Addy Feuerstein, Urban Origamu Video)
Illusion’s Choice
Every nerve quivers to restore
Clean order peace to my place
But if I do, I won’t finish school
It’s clear that I’ve become a fool
To think that I can self regulate
These external impulses pulling
Internal focus away from center
Distracting by fritter-frettering
Hurting My Self
Not because I wish to self harm
But because I need my strength
To help clear out garage’s glut
Get extra furniture stored in it
To clean the messes in my yard
To restore bedroom high regard
To clean the bathroom walls
Where broken fan has failed
And to vacuum front rooms
Then mop/dust away gloom
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
Static Cling
My hound has eaten the wood ends
Of the vintage designed coffee table
Because she has witnessed the others
Chewing on as ruining kitchen chairs
She has lost all reserve hollering
The others wear no bark collars
Anarchy reins supreme by family
Coming and going in own skeins
I have the honor of assisting
When arms want to overturn
Chaos, dirt, and mess by strength’s
Redetermination that I can’t access
Rare Reprieve
Other dogs have access to my space
Where mine were denied for reasons
Other dogs tear apart the careful regard
My own had for our inclusive politeness
They all now bark shattering my sanity
Destroying and tracking as I can’t clean
Nor tread safely without bump-injury
In whirlwinds when attempt to leave
(The Night That Knows Your Name – ECHOES)
In Time
I can not seem to get back into that room
The one where fat is a reality nourishing
Where the brain is no longer quivering
Because knows marrow is replenishing
It’s a state of mind shift where settling
Into moments relaxed and surrounding
Where no emergencies bombard-invade
Where nothing wastes by playing games
Why is it hard to hard-stop insecurities
Driving me to push against the injuries?
There is time here gathering in offering
Allowing me to final-run finish studies
Yet the concussion clamps to prevent
A determination that refuses to relent
Why is it so important that I be stopped
From the simplest-task meagerest want?
Why am I being thoroughly interfered with
Beating me down enforcing toward lament?
Just leave me alone I need not atone
There’s no self reflection to gain here
Having already done the work my soul
Knows what it burns in desire to learn
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
“Phantom Wings”
“‘My Pearl'”
Healing In Safety
Drumming Sync
Running From & To Love
Duck Lovers
(I Love the Way You Love · RebornBeat)
(Winter’s Dream – Camp Crush)
(Dust Layers – Mimicking Birds)
(Shadows – Camp Crush)
(Outskirts – Sam Hunt)
INFJ Lone Wolf
Trade-Offs
She had needed consistency of order and quiet.
However, she had needed reuniting with her once estranged family even more.
A Punitive System
She had already been making certain decisions – so why did influences have to hard shove closed doors from those directions she was already leaving?
(Infinite Baths – Sleep Token)
Self Recipe For Post Concussion Healing
Craniosacral opening of spine, neck, and head light programming – Day1-2 post concussion
Enforced personal therapy trigger points all over head, neck, shoulders, back, and spine over several hours trying to unlock compression, free brain from suffocation, and reduce high-intensity inflammation pain – Day 1 evening
Osteopathic Manipulation doctor gentle realignment cuing – Day 4 post concussion
Meanwhile, daily gentle excercises at gym to reconnect joints, muscles, and spine stability
Light Neurofeedback to help brain firing restabilize and reclaim prior gains – Day 7
Frontal hematoma and swelling first major release, causing brain cavity internal adjustments with injury severe exposure pain in sudden, periodic major shifting that I do not think anyone should have to be consciously experiencung while it is happening! – Day 9
(***DO NOT TRY THIS ON YIUR OWN AT HOME – OMG LOL!***)
“Hard-Knocks” Knowledge Gain
“Feeling the inside components of my skull shifting into better position as the fluid pressure released was excruciatingly painful and terrifying – especially when I sat up briefly and could taste the saline taint of lymphatic puss and blood from behind my throat passage as it drained.”
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