
“Spooder Plant”


“Where may lost lovers go
Once fragile hearts break
Like waves upon rocks
Cast about in anguish?
Out to sea, out to sea, beloved souls
For only thence may ye find fortune.”
– Athena Stairs, April 22, 2025

By Athena Stairs, April 22, 2025
Consume my heart
As if a falling star
Let our love’s light
Banish darkness
As we hearken to
Heaven’s guidance
Always knowing
Truth’s integrity
Lifting our souls singing
Like swallows winging
Caught in the trance
Of spiraling ecstasy
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No one questioned her about her identity, reasons for passage, or intended destination on the ship, and every evening before crews shifted to night’s light duty taken in turns, she was welcomed to join them as they ate supper, told lavish tales of their extensive journies, and sang and danced to sparse instruments accompanied by the beat of drums.
Having already learned a few rhythms herself, it felt easy for her to join in their revelries – and marvelous to be free at last, carried away by water and wind while guided by the stars’ heavenly trajectories.
“I know who you are, Cassandra. It will be alright.”
She jolted awake from the voice in a dream to the muffled sounds of the crew working the rigs outside her cabin and adjusting sails as they docked at their first port.
Dressed in common clothes and allowing herself to relax her posture a little, she no longer stood out as the graceful high priestess she’d been forced into becoming.
Hair tied back and hidden well under a worker’s cap, she stayed on board on the upper deck, out of sight, as the crew restocked supplies and then cast off, aiming for farther shores.
After the guard left once she again refused his advances, she knew she must escape.
It was only a matter of time before the rebellion broke out, and she knew they would eventually target her as a martyr, despite her attempts to keep out of it.
As the evening’s revelries coursed onward, she knew no one would think twice about her absence, so used to her same withdrawn introspections that never gave outward variations as she’d walk the halls and outer gardens.
Only this time, she deviated, heading out toward the cliffside in the deep of night – and at the last minute, making a sharp turn to trace along its edges until an openimg down to the beach below revealed itself.
Heart pounding and breath becoming ragged, she was tentative with each step as she carefully scaled the slippery path in the pale moonlight and then safely reached the shifting sands that compress-crunched quietly underneath her slippers as she lifted her dress hem and swished-stumbled forward toward a small, beached boat.
Within it, she found a change of clothes in a napsack weighted with stones, a sachel with food and water, and a coin purse with a rough-sketched map folded inside.
Then, she quickly pushed the boat into the edge of the calming ocean waters that were mid-shifting between tides.
Once she had maneuvered it to where she could climb into it without getting herself too wet, she leveraged the boat the rest of the way off of the sand and began rowing with renewed determination.
As she worked on maintaining a smooth yet fast-paced rhythm, she angled the boat out to just past the tucked-in cove to where a ship made ready to sail was still waiting for her in the deeper water.
An argument for sound’s potential healing resonance in affecting cells, etc., and also, just beautiful to behold.
A promise to me
On bended knee
Your pledge to
Provide safety
I ask about
Logistics
Fascinated by
Your proposal
Unsure of how
Will manifest
A white flower
In its entirety
Given to
Remind
—
This morning’s dream


Their 2nd year here, 1st scented blooms!

I’m not sure anymore
What makes one good
Is it sharing the same dreams or
The feeling of being understood?
Is it only transitory
Transactionality?
Is it bonding of the heart
Or all just a mind’s game?
Here is my chance – at last, at last!
Oh how I have waited for this repast
Through loneliness, hunger
And tragedies vast
Oh great Awakener
Redeeming my chance!

One of my music technology classes is beginning with Alan Parsons, who also produced Pink Floyd’s “Dark Side Of The Moon!”
This artist was one of the biggest influences on my internal dreamscaping as a child.
“I look around at what I have been, what I am, and what I am creating.
I still have amazing capacities to love and nourish, but I can no longer afford to give of my heart without it being reciprocated.
I can give to children, community, friends, and relatives, but my partnership…this is something sacred.”
“I have worked hard for, advocated for, and chased love.
It’s time that it courts me.”



Zoom…

“A man I love and admire grows farther away from me.
One I glimpse almost daily, it seems will never approach me.
And the one who wants contact only wants an occasional piece of me.”
Hard-shock, sudden bracing against impact caused shoulders, hips, knees, feet, spinal, and neck joint articulation zones to flange outward incorrectly and freeze like ripped scar tissue.
Here comes another “insurmountable” deadline.
She had to realize that this was her life, now.
One struggle to survive after another.
She refused to be a craven beast.

Why am I dreaming of you?
“Trying to untwist my thigh injury while on the boarder of falling asleep yielded a little bit at last due to PT exercising”
It bound her up – yanking and pulling hard at joints and sinews every time she moved in any direction to escape it.
But, slowly, she was figuring out how to untangle herself from its torment as she leaned into the pain whining and testing.
Mischief managed for the moment!
“My wild magic and I are not sure what this would gain us, because we are not trying to compete for attention.”
“Maybe if I didn’t try to keep growing and doing things, the disrupting chaos would not find me.
But, somehow, I find this unlikely.”
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Artists: Fat Joe & Remy Ma