Author: Candid Corvid Productions
Devotion
She would rather tear her own castle apart than ever turn against him.
Ad Hilarity
“The Geico Gecko? OMG – I’m speechless!” says the woman talking to it.
(She should be – because she shouldn’t be seeing that critter or talking to it in her reality!)
(The Love I Have For You – Colton Dixon)
(Emotions – GDH)
(Hideous Town – The Sundays)
What Is The Goal?
“The goal is to keep going forward…
Survival.”
It’s Weird
“To see doors closing that I once thought were still open to me.
Like…
I don’t think that I’ll ever do a year abroad now for school.
The concept seems ridiculous now with exhaustion from disability.”
(Can’t Let Go – Tony El Campeon)
No,
“It’s not about money.”
(You Never Give Me Your Money – The Beatles)
(Feels Like We Only Go Backwards – Tame Impala)
Dear Alex,
I need you
I want you
But I can’t absorb your
Leaving again & again
My only recourse is
To no longer allow
Myself to
Be open
In order to save my soul
From becoming corrupted
By madness of
Yearning for you
Without hope
Of recompense
You never yield
You never relent
You never come forward
And reveal your true self
And quite frankly, I just
Can’t take this anymore
Migraine Madness
I think I must shut down this entire need
This cycle of longing driving into frenzy
It is the situation – the abandonment cycle
Had I known, I would not have fallen into it
But I thought that it was an open invitation
That it was genuine honesty – for once given
Not another bait / switch retract scenario
Designed to send me into another tailspin
How Can I?
“Put on makeup when I’m crying?”
(I Just Found You – NOVRA)
Dear Friend,
“The pain wants me to push against and turn away from you now.
I might push, but I will hold my ground.
Even if the pain distracts me and I am slipping.”
How Should It Be?
“I don’t know…
But I have coffee.”
Winter
Bites
Happy?
Now
(Ascensionism – Sleep Token)
I’m Not Gonna
“No…you don’t get to see my internal mess, here…”
Word Of The Day: Blanched
“Since when does it no longer mean shocked or having color drained from, for example?
As in sudden reaction leading to other reactions…”
(Lockdown, migraine, etc.)
Blanched
“Of course I recoiled when I saw you.
You can’t just walk into my scene and expect me to be able to control myself without any warning when I am already fraying at the seams!
Are you here to help me, or just to tease and torment by your leaving?
You make me want to get my hands on you and show you some things about manners!
Then, you wouldn’t be leaving…”
—
(Title & content of multiple meanings)
Who Made Me Like This?
“I did…
I’m an anomaly in the system – under pain and pressure to give in.”
The Breaking Point
“You know – it takes a lot of strength to maintain my composure and not throw myself upon you – and I just don’t have the muscle strength nor pain tolerance to keep up with these ‘playing it cool’ reservations!”
Taking Pain Lightly
It was just another neck tension migraine…
Holding Space
She always retracted when he came into a room.
He thought that meant she didn’t like him.
But it was because she was so attracted.
It was complicated.
She didn’t want to harm or alter him or his course in any way.
She respected and yet needed him too much.
She would require him to include her in everything.
She couldn’t hold her love back with any measure of balance – and feared its affect upon him.
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
City With A View
“I look forward to revisiting it for my retraining.”
Phasing Out
She was passing through a dim dressing room when she was anonymously given a dark cape with a collar like a lion’s ruff, which allowed her to pass through the veil.
Can I Just?
Go back to sleep now?
Can I not be in pain?
(Back To Friends – Sombr)
Ghosts In The Machine
I feel you there
Waiting, watching
But you are not here
As delaying, debating
Don’t you know?
I want to be altered
Forced to ignore you
My steps falter
Circle Movement System
A Slanted View
“I greatly dislike how the injuries from the accident have increased burdens that I was already carrying.
What is this?
F-ing Boss level?!”
(Bare Truth – OverHeaven)
The Load
It isn’t easy carrying the weight on my own
No, in fact, I am very tired to faltering now
But I still know how to instinctively brace
Creating a type of pressure distribution
I just wonder what it would be like
To not have to hold the line alone
Spiritual Cleansing
In the dream, I was a different person whose adult daughter had saved everyone by jumping into the ocean and bringing a huge wooden sailing ship back to shore.
The ship had become lodged against government waste dumped into the ocean, and therefore, my daughter was exposed to high levels of radiation in the process.
The next day in overcast weather, I happened upon a spiritual dowser who helped me find my daughter on a path at the bottom of two sea cliffs set close together that formed a channel leading into underground cave chambers.
She was speaking with outliers of society who lived there and were benefitting by her knowledge gained about the ship’s structure.
When my daughter saw me, she came to great me triumphantly – but then stopped abruptly to keep me safe from the toxic radiation that I could feel crackling as it emitted in waves outward from her body.
However, I stepped right up to her and gave her a long hug, willing transfer of energy between our bodies to help dislodge the radiation in hers.
As our molecules exchanged charges, mine brought her energy through my body for cleansing in a return-looping conduction, and I silently asked the universe to release the toxins back into the air to dissipate harmlessly.
I do not know if I was rendured sterile as usual a consequence of radiation exposure because the laws of physics altered through my healer’s conjured absolution.
However, my daughter was then able to return to society due to regaining her body’s neutrality, and I did not either seem to have retained any negative energetic byproducts.
Holiday Retail Matrix
YUP!
Poof!
Ah, Yes…
“The great taped lens escape…”
(Where did it slip off to this time?)
Quadly Quads
“It doesn’t help that my quads in addition to taking force straight through them of a speeding heavy car, they also froze and still adhere to thigh bones and tissues around them.
It is taking so very long in trying to get them to reactivate and differentiate again – which lacking this pulls even more on hip joint attachments.”
Did I Mention?
“A couple weeks back, a ladybug suddenly landed on my nose in the garden!”
(Reference to movie, “Under The Tuscan Sun)
(Oh, How I’ve Missed You – FoldingSky)
Dear Friend,
“When I think of having time with you once we’ve managed to crack this barrier between us, I think of so many good things – and I must admit, just snuggling with you and finally getting some sleep is high on my priority wish list.”
😉
